Feeling Lonely And Hopeless

[Enaila]

I can relate to your teaching thoughts. It will take small steps and sometimes even a step or two back to start to heal. Give yourself permission to take the time you need. Remember to breathe...that is my biggest weakness when I am feeling overwhelmed. Journaling is definitely useful for letting go of some of the extra thoughts overwhelming you.

Find a therapist you feel comfortable with and remember, like a physical wound, sometimes it hurts to clean out the gunk so it can heal. Keep reaching out. I know this site has helped me in the short time I have been using it.

 

[Enaila]

I can relate to your teaching thoughts. It will take small steps and sometimes even a step or two back...

Racing not teaching thoughts

 

[mamachick]

With the exception of fear of infertility, I relate to everything that you have said. I am not in place to give advice but can share my experience. I haven't mastered the formula for success, but I do recognize what has caused me to fail, or at least have set backs. My experience is that I have to become a best friend to myself before I can let other into my life. I lack trust. Sometimes their worries seem so trivial when I am struggling with this. Because my esteem is so damaged, I have tolerated too much and expected too little, but eventually get fed up and not always diplomatically. So as far as new friends, right now , often I do attract the wrong people still so I stay in touch with a few very old friends that I made during a healthier time but spend little time with them as I am not a very good friend at the moment. Most of the friends that I lost were the superficial ones anyway so not a huge deal. The core or real me wants to be with positive up beat people, but I have to re-ignite that quality in myself before that is going to happen. As others have said, good therapist is essential. I know that I dont want to go back to where I have been. I miss my life as it was before ptsd symptoms but I know I am forever changed, but if I keep moving forward, I think I can come out ok, changed-yes, but whole again.