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:( Totally hate this. All last week I had 5 good days :D and then the beginning of this week. . . *BANG* I get hit every single day with physical symptoms :meh: one after the other. . .
So many unanswered questions. . .
:shifty: Struggling tonight. Mainly depressive episode and state after a very bad panic attack last night. It just always feels endless. Wish I could :sleep: I will probably be back on here with many more questions. . . :O_o: but right now, I just wish I knew the answer to why I am suffering so much pain and at random times. Just to be sent home from the hospital, or to be told by the doctor. . .it's all psychological (meaning, it's all in my head!!) :cautious: Not good!
Had to get that off my chest! I need to rant and this typing is slightly helping. . .a little, though I still want answers! :cool:
So many unanswered questions. . .
- When is this going to end?
- Does it ever end?
- How the hell did our Ancestors cope with PTSD when they were living in rougher times than us?
- Is there hope for us yet?
- What's the point in the physical pain, that doctor's can never explain, which just leaves you more frightened and not being able to comprehend what is going on?
- When people say find coping mechanisms and you have tried them all, is it basically just having no choice to ride this out?
- As anyone just got passed this and never looked back?
- I hate PTSD, I hate panic and anxiety and I am sick of feeling like this all of the time!
- Is the bad days just setbacks?
- When do we get our life back?
- Is there any right or wrong way to deal with PTSD?
- When people tell me to relax, try calm down. . .and I literally can't. Am I the one bringing on my symptoms then? Because it feels like they come on all by themselves.
- People say, look for triggers. . .what if there isn't any?
- Why is there so many physical and emotions symptoms to this PTSD? :mad::confused: especially the fight and flight! I get fight and flight, we need it to cross the road,when we are in danger. But to be sitting watching TV,nothing is happening, not even on the TV and then all of a sudden you can feel funny and not in the 'ha-ha' kind of way. . .just weird, then maybe your heart starts to ache alongside your chest. Then you think - here we f*cking go again. . .reminding yourself - you are safe, it's not a heart attack. Then your brain thinks you are a doctor as it screams in panic at you - WELL WHAT THE f*ck IS IT THEN? You are yelling back. . I don't know! And the exhausting battle continue's! Why does the brain scare itself so much? It's meant to be clever! And the body aches so much, but there is nothing there to be detected to why you can continuously feel this pain. The doctor's and hospital know nada! What's the point?!
:shifty: Struggling tonight. Mainly depressive episode and state after a very bad panic attack last night. It just always feels endless. Wish I could :sleep: I will probably be back on here with many more questions. . . :O_o: but right now, I just wish I knew the answer to why I am suffering so much pain and at random times. Just to be sent home from the hospital, or to be told by the doctor. . .it's all psychological (meaning, it's all in my head!!) :cautious: Not good!
Had to get that off my chest! I need to rant and this typing is slightly helping. . .a little, though I still want answers! :cool:
