Feeling unsure of what i should be feeling

[Moniq]

I am perplexed about a couple of situations. At my last counseling session I was guided through speaking about an experience. I was given time to process my feelings but had none, I still have none, regarding what we spoke about. I told my counselor this and was told that I do have some sort of feelings regarding it and that I was denying it. Is this plausible? Can this lack of feeling be due to denying going through the experience? I have been told to trust my memories but I do not. I question why they would come after years of nothing.

I have struggled with counseling for some time now, mostly because I struggle with any part the experience to be true. It has been suggested several times that I see another counselor as well. I have declined. Mostly because I fear restarting the process, especially now that I think a little progress is being made. I have been in counseling for about two years now I am still have frequent flashbacks and insomnia and anger. Any advice on how to stop struggling in counseling?

Any advice is welcome, at the moment I am very lost. Even posting this is unnerving.

 

[LilyRose]

Hi. I don't have advice sorry. But know you are not alone.
I am struggling to. My t told me i am not in contact with my feelings. And that when i tell about what happend i don't get emotional as i should. But, i know i feel something when i talk about it, i just can't show it, and i can't cry. But he doesn't listen. What he doesn't see, isn't there. So he just gave up on me.

Maybe there trust issues? Maybe that is why we don't let go? Idk just thinking about it.