Feeling very alone and misunderstood

[Maisie]

Hi MyPTSD,

I’ve had a pretty horrific few weeks with a pretty major flashback causing all sorts of challenges.

I’ve needed to have really regular doctors, psychiatrist, psychologist’s appointments to just cope with day to day life. But apart from those appointments I feel like I’m on my own.

My family support is basically non existent, I have no friends I can talk to about my trauma / ask for support, so that leaves a lot of time to just sort it out on my own.

I’m wondering if checking in here and posting more will help reduce the feeling of ‘no one gets it’

Things have been so dire for me lately, that never before have I heavily considered taking my own life to just get away from the pain. I’ve mentioned this briefly to two of my specialists, but I think because typically people don’t talk about taking their life, it just gets dismissed!

Anyway it’s Saturday morning school sport here in Australia so I’m off to watch!

 

[Movingforward10]

This site really really helps in terms of people understanding and getting it. And sharing experiences and how others have gotten through things. It helps to be validated, understood, learn and heal. At least it has for me!

So I hope it helps you.

Totally understandable that the thoughts of ending the pain include ending your life when other strategies to end the pain aren't working.
Lots of people on here have had those thoughts to varying degrees.

It can and does get easier.

 

[arfie]

I’m wondering if checking in here and posting more will help reduce the feeling of ‘no one gets it’

it most certainly does in my case. i carry it a step further to maintain a peer support network to diversify the benefits. i think of the pros on my therapy network as reference books which never leave the library. they are chock full of good information, but the social distances are too great to be of great benefit. it is my peers who have my back in the trenches and help me figure out how to apply all that detached information to the messy grinds of life.

 

[Maisie]

This site really really helps in terms of people understanding and getting it. And sharing experiences and how others have gotten through things. It helps to be validated, understood, learn and heal. At least it has for me!

So I hope it helps you.

Totally understandable that the thoughts of ending the pain include ending your life when other strategies to end the pain aren't working.
Lots of people on here have had those thoughts to varying degrees.

It can and does get easier.

Thank you! I really hope it gets easier, because of late I’m feeling like it’s getting harder

 

[OM_™]

a lot of time to just sort it out on my own

My family and friends network are usually overwhelmed and incapable of understanding. Not many will ask questions and most just don't want to know. MYPTSD is a good place to go to between expensive therapy sessions...it's a bit like journaling with feedback from others going through tough times. And if no-one responds, it's still good to (talk to yourself); sort it out on your own. It takes some getting used to the reality that you can't take the therapists home with you or contact them after hours. It's hellishly lonely but it feels good to sort it out and realise that it's OK to run through a full gamut of emotions. Good luck Maisie!

 

[Freddyt]

My family and friends network are usually overwhelmed and incapable of understanding.

The only way to understand it is to have it. Even then.....most of what they can do is let you know they are there for human contact....

I’m wondering if checking in here and posting more will help reduce the feeling of ‘no one gets it’

It does in a lot of ways. I refer to the "Chit Chat" part of the forum as 'my substitute social life' to my T sometimes.
The other part I found helpful was the Journal. Chances are good you will find someone or someones who can help you see things you are missing.

 

[Maisie]

My family and friends network are usually overwhelmed and incapable of understanding. Not many will ask questions and most just don't want to know. MYPTSD is a good place to go to between expensive therapy sessions...it's a bit like journaling with feedback from others going through tough times. And if no-one responds, it's still good to (talk to yourself); sort it out on your own. It takes some getting used to the reality that you can't take the therapists home with you or contact them after hours. It's hellishly lonely but it feels good to sort it out and realise that it's OK to run through a full gamut of emotions. Good luck Maisie!

Thank you @OM_™
I really need to make this site a bit more of a priority to get out of my head more! The inner chatter on top of everything else going on makes for a pretty challenging time!
I’ve got a trauma diary set up on here……now to just use it!

The only way to understand it is to have it. Even then.....most of what they can do is let you know they are there for human contact....


It does in a lot of ways. I refer to the "Chit Chat" part of the forum as 'my substitute social life' to my T sometimes.
The other part I found helpful was the Journal. Chances are good you will find someone or someones who can help you see things you are missing.

Thank you @Freddyt
I basically have no social life, and even less so when things feel super hard like right now as I cancel my attendance at groups I go to!
My plan is to be around here a lot more often

 

[Freddyt]

Thank you @Freddyt
I basically have no social life, and even less so when things feel super hard like right now as I cancel my attendance at groups I go to!
My plan is to be around here a lot more often

Cool. The best part? Everyone can read PTSDese when your symptoms are acting up.