Finally Facing This

[Strwbry33]

:unsure:I am new to this and i am unsure about many things, but I am not unsure about the need for me to finally stand up and face this illness-head on. I am not naive enough to think that I can do it on my own so I am looking to share, chat and learn new things as well as share my knowledge & experience wit the disorder with others.

PLEASE! No matter what your feelings my be regarding the religious aspect of suicide, or your own personal feelings as to whether or not people who take their own lives are "cowards"...
PLEASE DO NOT share any negative opinion with me. I am tired of hearing that ! Not only is it presumptuous and inconsiderate, it is downright ignorant to say that to a SOS -(survivor of suicide). I am here for help, not more criticism and rude comments.

Basically, I was diagnosed with PTSD in 2002, shortly after my Father took his own life. It has been the most difficult experience of my life and there is not a day that goes by that I do not think about it. In all honesty, I could have been diagnosed much earlier, based on the experiences of my seriously tragic and traumatic childhood, but my fathers' death brought my illness out into the open, when the symptoms and repercussions could no longer be denied.

 

[sbump]

Welcome and may you find the information and support you need here.

 

[Srain]

Welcome Strwbry33,

I'm glad that you found this site. I look forward to getting to know you, just post as you feel comfortable.
It sounds like you have been through a lot, I'm terribly sorry for your pain.

peace,
Rain

 

[Lucycat]

Hi Strwbry,
Welcome to the forum.

Your introduction sounds so defensive, I guess you have heard some pretty insensitive remarks in the past.
Many of us on here, as sufferers of PTSD or CPTSD have had suicidal thoughts and feelings ourselves. Many will have made attempts. I don't think any of us will judge you or your father.

I hope you can find the help and support you need
Regards
Lucy x

 

[Froggie]

Welcome to the forum Strwbry. Like Lucycat, I'm also guessing that you have had to deal with some rough comments on that subject. What Lucy said is true, many of the sufferers here have tried or intented to commit suicide. Take some time to read some of the articles as you are dealing with a great deal and you have to take care of you. Will be looking forward to reading your posts.

 

[Kim]

I can relate to the loss of your father to suicide. Mine committed suicide when I was 3. I can't tell you how this has impacted my life. That was probably the first step on the long road to PTSD and Complex Trauma for me. After that I was emotionally abused and neglected by my mother and stepfather.

I've had many conflicting thoughts concerning my father's suicide over the years but then again I've had a long time to think about it.