Thanks for posting this! I don't have combat PTSD, but a lot of my issues are related to gunshots and robberies and such and the fireworks are the most horrible trigger ever for me. I've been really struggling with keeping myself safe today. It's so tempting to go out and buy some booze and some sleeping pills and just get through the day that way like I have the past 8 or so years... trying to cope in positive ways this time though. I've been trying to watch movies this morning, only I found I was starting to zone out and dissociate a tiny bit, even without really feeling triggered- I think my mind is so worried about the fireworks tonight, it's just trying to dissociate before that even happens, to isolate itself somehow in an attempt to feel safe... not sure if that's just me or if anyone else has ever had that experience. I think I'm going to go for a swim, it's nice out, people shouldn't be doing fireworks til later on today so it should be safe to be out (and worse case scenario, it's not like the pool in my backyard is that far from my bedroom, so having a flashback near the pool shouldn't be too bad- for some reason though, I'm always afraid of having them outside, especially if no one is around). I have a new therapist I talked to yesterday who is checking up on me at some random unknown time, I have friends who I have scheduled a regular time to check in with... hoping all of that together will keep me safe. But there is a firework show at the colleges that are literally right across the street from me. It's a really long like 40+minute show, and I don't know how I'm going to survive that unless I'm asleep by then, but I'm worried that even if I'm asleep the noise may wake me up.