I had a flashback a few months ago. Probably the worst one I’ve ever had. The flashback itself was traumatic. I was screaming as loud as I could and heavily alarming everyone around me. Someone called 911 and the police and an ambulance came. I have a lot of amnesia about this event.
As soon as the flashback ended I basically woke up to myself screaming “Help me” extremely loudly. Very confused, I serveyed the room around me, realizing where I was. On a gurney in the ER. I didn’t even remember or understand why I was just screaming and I didn’t remember how I got to the ER. I was put into a room on the psych section of the ER and began talking to myself frantically. I started thinking I was going to die at certain times and was watching the clock, so that could probably be considered delusional, but it progressed from there, getting much worse. I was thinking very “out there” things.
So, this psychosis immediately followed the flashback. I’m wondering if the flashback was so extremely stressful that I became psychotic. I know in the weeks leading up to this flashback I was becoming slightly paranoid, having nightmares, and was rarely leaving my room.
I’m wondering if this is common or not and am confused about this whole experience. Has anything similar happened to anyone else? Psychosis suddenly seeming to be brought on by a flashback? Does it make sense that these two things would be related?
Sometimes I’m even doubting myself on if it actually was a flashback because of the fact that psychosis surrounds it’s memory. The things I remember screaming, the way I was screaming, and the images I was seeing, I know what it is, but the trauma memory is so heinous that I can’t say that it even actually happened. I’m hoping to get a bit of clarity.
As soon as the flashback ended I basically woke up to myself screaming “Help me” extremely loudly. Very confused, I serveyed the room around me, realizing where I was. On a gurney in the ER. I didn’t even remember or understand why I was just screaming and I didn’t remember how I got to the ER. I was put into a room on the psych section of the ER and began talking to myself frantically. I started thinking I was going to die at certain times and was watching the clock, so that could probably be considered delusional, but it progressed from there, getting much worse. I was thinking very “out there” things.
So, this psychosis immediately followed the flashback. I’m wondering if the flashback was so extremely stressful that I became psychotic. I know in the weeks leading up to this flashback I was becoming slightly paranoid, having nightmares, and was rarely leaving my room.
I’m wondering if this is common or not and am confused about this whole experience. Has anything similar happened to anyone else? Psychosis suddenly seeming to be brought on by a flashback? Does it make sense that these two things would be related?
Sometimes I’m even doubting myself on if it actually was a flashback because of the fact that psychosis surrounds it’s memory. The things I remember screaming, the way I was screaming, and the images I was seeing, I know what it is, but the trauma memory is so heinous that I can’t say that it even actually happened. I’m hoping to get a bit of clarity.
