Today, I might have had a break through...somehow positive some how not.
I was watching television with my parents when I had heart palpations (which did hurt a bit) and i just got up and decided to go up stairs in the attic where I just broke down crying. The last time I cried this way was when I had to get a TB shot in order to volunteer (which definitely brought back some flashbacks). After i finished crying tonight I started to get flashbacks. Some not so vivid but other's vivid of the incident I went through at college...Just say it has to do with the whole bullying epidemic.
I realize now I am starting to breathe a little better then yesterday. But today was hard too. I slept till 11:30am got up and felt like crap. I just laid in bed and litterally saw my life in my mind about my happy days at Disney with my mom that we took a few years ago. then some college days where i was happy going down to the "Strip" (i went to college in Vegas). But now i recall the days prior to the incident and a few afterwards. It sucks.
Any advice? I'm going to talk bout this to my psycologist come monday. i'm also writing about it now so i don't forget.
I was watching television with my parents when I had heart palpations (which did hurt a bit) and i just got up and decided to go up stairs in the attic where I just broke down crying. The last time I cried this way was when I had to get a TB shot in order to volunteer (which definitely brought back some flashbacks). After i finished crying tonight I started to get flashbacks. Some not so vivid but other's vivid of the incident I went through at college...Just say it has to do with the whole bullying epidemic.
I realize now I am starting to breathe a little better then yesterday. But today was hard too. I slept till 11:30am got up and felt like crap. I just laid in bed and litterally saw my life in my mind about my happy days at Disney with my mom that we took a few years ago. then some college days where i was happy going down to the "Strip" (i went to college in Vegas). But now i recall the days prior to the incident and a few afterwards. It sucks.
Any advice? I'm going to talk bout this to my psycologist come monday. i'm also writing about it now so i don't forget.
