Flashbacks

[Deleted member 29920]

CJ77, I also feel like my first 30, actually 40 years were, well not exactly a lie, but a dream, maybe. The...

@hodge, yes, like a dream, in my case, a really horrendous dream. I know what you mean.

 

[Gadgie]

Yea! I think it helps keep your mind occupied while trying to get your verses to rhyme, also when writing the stories it seems to release your frustration.

I always seem a bit surprised when I go back to read it all later on, you say to your self, did I write that? As I always see things in a different way, when I'm feeling a bit better, does that happen to you?

 

[Bunnybutt]

Interesting ghostybear.....I don't talk much..tended to use coping skills with the affects for the p...

I don't think i agree with that 100%.
My first flashback was triggered by a video on Youtube of all things.
My second one (there have been many small ones, I'm referring to major ones), just this past Sunday night.
I feel like I built up to it. For almost two weeks I kept having this random 'feeling of impending doom'.
Then Sunday night/Monday morning (wee hours), I had a memory of something that I didn't know had
happened, but as soon as it came through, I remembered it all very clearly. My lost time was 'found'.
My first major flashback, I was not in a safe place at all, my marriage was rocky, nothing was going
right. My second major (seriously life changing) my marriage is in a much better place, but I was up
alone in a quiet house working on a craft project. Home used tobe my safe place. It's been
narrowed down to one room in the house. And that's where I had my second major flashback a few nights ago.

I think it musy vary person to person, and we are all different, and outside stimuli is so variable.
I hope you are well.

Regards, Bebe

 

[Captain Proton]

The more stressful a time is, the more numerous and intense flashbacks become. It becomes a war of overwhelming emotions within me of deep despair, wild rage and shaking terror. It keeps me unnerved all day trying to keep it all behind a dam causing yet another level of stress to battle and all the confusion that comes with it.

By the end of the day, I am exhausted, depressed and feel like I should not even exist.