I have felt like that so many times. And like you, I get scared at feeling dependent because it makes me feel too vulnerable. Like if I get to comfortable and start opening up more, i will just get hurt, rejected, judged and abandoned again.
I lost my major support guy for a couple of weeks, it's what prompted me to join here, as I was not coping at all well. So I understand just how triggery and vulnerable that can be.
This site is becoming a lifeline for me and it's only been a week or something but rest assured, you are valued, appreciated and cared about here. Please have faith that you are Loved and allow yourself to feel that a little. I don't know you but I'm feeling for you and sending out some compassion through the ether to you! Hugs!
