My teeth hurt. I keep clenching my jaw. Tonight I don't think sleep is coming. I'm too f*cking angry and filled with hate. My entire body wants to revolt. There's this great big ball of sadness too. Like my chest weighs a thousand pounds and my bones ache. I want to crawl out of my skin. I can't focus on anything except how angry I am. I can't even remember my own address anymore. I got lost on a walk with my service dog today. I was only a block away from home and I got f*cking lost. I can't remember anything because they f*cked me up. I was just a kid. How could anyone be that f*cking cruel to a kid? My entire life I'll be dealing with the shit they did. There's nothing left in me; I'm empty. I can't hold a job. I can't go back to school. I can't even remember where I f*cking live. I've lived in this town my entire f*cking life and can't remember where I live. It's so f*cked.