Goodbye Happiness

[Teddy Bear]

I have felt like a total Scrooge for a couple days now. I just don't care about anything that used to interest me anymore. For instance, I used to love reading what people were thankful for on Facebook, but this morning I just scrolled past them all without a second look. Does anybody else feel like this? Is it just the holiday season? I have felt like this for a couple weeks now. I just want some input from you all and to see where everyone is at with the holidays coming up. If there is any pain or struggles that you are dealing with, I want to hear it. I want to know that I'm not all alone.

 

[EveHarrington]

Hopefully it's only a short episode and will pass soon.

 

[Ironlady]

I have felt like a total Scrooge for a couple days now. I just don't care about anything that used t...

When I'm hurting I can't focus on it either.. I will scroll past or avoid altogether.. it creates a void feeling and a feeling of lack.. it points and amplifies my own lack of happiness.. I'm genuinely happy for others don't get me wrong but when I can't create that same feeling it makes me feel worse.

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

You are SOOO not alone! I think at least part of it is the holidays.

I have a lot of death anniversaries in November, plus around here, the leaves have fallen, and it's quite bland and cold. I always get better as soon as the New Year arrives. I know Spring and it's color, and growth are on there way!

I also grew up with unrealistic expectations for the holidays, especially Christmas. I couldn't afford to gift everyone I wanted to, or didn't receive ANYTHING special, which wasn't about the gift, but being special and celebrated.

Crowds and family gatherings tend to cause anxiety, and that alone creates a dread.

So, I am right there with ya!

AKJ

 

[aut555]

You are SOOO not alone! I think at least part of it is the holidays.

So agree with you. Holidays represent family, so the holiday serve to remind us of what we do or don't have. Think l reflect more on there are a lot of families that get together but still there is total chaos and denial. So holidays represent my freedom from bad family interaction and l can choose to be centered and in the moment and not give in to the unhappy thought process. I can celebrate my freedom from family, abusive spouses and anything else that tried to hold me back.

 

[Deleted member 33052]

@Teddy Bear. I wrote this last night:

"I look around my home and I feel no sense of belonging. I look at my family and I feel redundant. I look up to the stars and I feel cold. I look at the trees and I feel indifferent"

We seem to be in the same place right now. I don't know if it's the holidays - I usually love Christmas. I hope this passes for all of us who are feeling down, and I hope it passes quickly. I also can't think of anything to be grateful for, which is scary. (hug)

 

[Deleted member 33052]

We are all longing for something and that longing is intensified at Christmas. What we need can't be given, so we are disappointed. Disillusioned. Melancholy. Does anyone relate to this?

 

[Teddy Bear]

We are all longing for something and that longing is intensified at Christmas. What we need can't...

I can totally relate and I concur; we are in the same boat. I spent my Thanksgiving at work and my family is doing Thanksgiving today but yet again I'm at work. I just feel like I'm sinking deeper and deeper into isolation which is kinda scary because my college group from church is having a Thanksgiving dinner on Monday. That will be the only Thanksgiving that I will be able to attend to and not be late to. I'll be able to fully enjoy that. It's just hard because I want to go and socialize with my friends but at the same time I want to stay at home and be alone.

P.S. I had to filter out a few sarcastic remarks about myself. Trying to be happy.

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

Well... I could quote what EVERYONE is saying, and it would be about me...especially
@Mal Content "what we need can't be given."

If "this" is a boat...Ima thinkin' it better be a
BIG boat!:wideeyed:

 

[Freedomfighter]

I have felt like a total Scrooge for a couple days now. I just don't care about anything that used t...

No, you are not alone in this. I think a huge part of us has a huge need to keep stress low. The holidays are filled with stress and quite frankly anything that introduces stress into my personal life will be abolished.

I took almost all of my xmas decorations down today, placed some ambient lighting around my place and worked on Feng shui ideas. Most calming experience and whatever introduces calm and happiness into my life stays. The holidays are not introducing happiness into my life, so I will stick with what is pleasurable to me. Have absolutely no qualms about the holidays anymore, all the trara and tamtam is not worth my sanity.

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

VERY wise @Teddy Bear !!! Control your surroundings when possible!