Grief / nothing to live for

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@berlinda

You’ve offered me so many wise words whilst being on this forum I really appreciate what you have said to me in the past, it’s helped me find some peace in difficult times. Thank you your significane is valued.

I can empathise how you feel about wanting people but fearing them, I too feel the same... I wish I could be close to people without feeling they are going to hurt me, it’s really upsetting to think how past experiences and this condition affects daily life but it is testimont of strength to having gone through all that each day and still be here... It’s actually a miracle.

I feel we fight a fight that people on their darkest day turn to for help. Not many people can hang out in this arena but you have for many years... if that isn’t resiliency then I don’t know what is. You offer so much compassion and wisdom to us all. You are valued and I wish you well.

 

[Teasel]

I'm in this place again.

Visited an old friend in May, and it was great. The boost to my mental health and being able to function was astonishing too.

But it's wearing off. And I keep getting stuck in feelings of terror, hurt and sadness over having no one. I keep feeling like I did when I was a kid.

Can't stop crying. Or eating! It's so painful!

 

[Lionheart]

@berlinda I am sorry to read that you are in that sad place again. I think I understand. I lost my mom and dad, brother and sister and I feel like I am all alone in the world. I have no real friends just a daughter, a niece, and a few members of an extended family. But no one close like I was with my sister.

Also, I have been without a significant other for almost 20 years and I am wondering what is wrong with me?! I sometimes cry because it is so lonely and frustrating being alone. It seems like everybody has someone except for me.

Something, I imagine, is triggering your feelings as you mentioned feeling like you did when you were a kid. I just wanted to say that I am sorry you are sad and I hope things improve real soon. You seem like a perfectly likable person and you deserve some good friends in your life.

 

[Teasel]

Thank you @Lionheart777 really touched by your reply, it's helped. Am really sorry you're alone too.

Since I lost my Dad 3 years ago things have been really tough. :hug:

 

[Lionheart]

I am happy that it helped!!! Grief is difficult no matter how long ago it was...losing a loved one is just hard to deal with. I am so sorry you lost your dad. Remember the good and happy times as best ya can and keep the memories alive in your heart. Sorry for the delay in writing. :) I hope you have an awesome day. :hug:

 

[bellbird]

I'm sorry you're back in this place, @berlinda . Really glad you've reached out, though.

Is there anything that helps bring light at the moment? Even if only for a short while?

I love that this forum has folks from all over the world, but I often wish that we were all in the same place to catch up IRL. There's nothing quite like being around people who understand.
Still, I send you many virtual hugs from my corner of the world and let you know that I'm thinking of you and that I hope the light breaks once again, soon.

:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

 

[VioletButterfly]

Hey @berlinda - I'm sorry you're having a difficult time. Sending some of my stronger-winged cousins across the ocean and over your way to flutter about and cheer up your day. Thinking about you and wishing the best for you. Hugs (if that's okay) VB

 

[Teasel]

Thank you so much @VioletButterfly well wishes much appreciated ♡

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

(((Hugs)))

I innerstand and wish for more peaceful healing thoughts for all.

It's so heavy.