Childhood Guilt??

[Copper Princess]

My abuser would always say don't tell anyone or you will get in trouble. I did tell once but it was pretty much ignored. I did not tell again, several years went by and he would tell me this everytime he climbed in bed woth me. Currently I feel his voice haunts me at night telling me not to tell. I feel like I am breaking confidence by telling. I feel a little guilty because I am not supposed to tell anyone. Is this normal while going through therapy.?

 

[ShodokanJenn]

It's totally normal. I've been in therapy for quite a while now, and I STILL feel intense fear and guilt when I tell him things. I was told, always, that if I told I'd be killed, my family would be killed, I'd never see them again. I was made to promise repeatedly not to tell. It took over two years of therapy before I said anything out loud about what happened, and four years before I revealed anybody's first name (I still haven't told him anyone's last name). My therapist assures me that this is expected and normal, and that I'm not doing anything wrong.