Gunny Sgt.peppers Lonely Hearts Club Ptsd Bar And Grill.

[wife of]

Just a wee point on the flashbacks,hubbys take two forms,one the reel of film,where he just shuts of completely and is in the moment and he also takes the ones where he is fully immersed in the moment,full on smells hears and tastes the place,hes so immersed in them that his scottish accent that has considerably softened over 15 yrs in scouseland returns to full on growly deep Glaswegian!! Coming out of them he is confused for about 5-10 mins as to where he is and is convinced it is '93 and that our 19 yr old should still be a baby,so explaining the prescence of a 16+ yr old young man in the house has been a little hairy ...Generaly recognises me when coming out of one though and a few weeks ago he charmingly asked WTF have you done with your hair?? its now short and red as opposed to long and brown in '93...lol. Lots of things set him off,but he is an avid Football fan and watching games sets him off,I think its because the varied rapid eye movements employed to watch mimic the eye movements of being hypervigilant....

 

[Wagon]

I just realized that the grocery store issue I have is a flashback. Narrow aisles like passageways and other people in the way. For me it's like running to Battle Stations (bong bong bong goes the alarm) and it's just never fast enough always people in the way and I want to shove them and say hurry up hurry up, lets go. And then an agonizing line at the end. I'm sweating and frazzled when I get out of there. Takes 30 minutes to recover sometimes.

And I just realized what it is. Grocery stores are bad, but IKEA. IKEA is my idea of hell on earth.

 

[wife of]

Not sure if Ikea uses the same Decor world wide but I would imagine that seeing the warehouse shelving and the battle grey floor paint out of your periperal vision would trigger stuff off for you.

 

[track108]

i hate wal-mart but its really bad when a children are crying

 

[wife of]

Lol , track I don't think thats a ptsd thing,I'm a bit of an earthmother but I absolutely hate other peoples screaming brats!

 

[Jimmy1]

No Track, after seeing children all over the world, hurt, dead, etc, I cannot handle a kid crying anymore either. Like I have said in an earlier post, since having PTSD, I might not display emotions, but my body feels a lot of emotions.
So children crying I hate. Children hurt upsets me. I am glad my youngest is nearly 14. He jumped off a roof at school yesterday (4 m). Wish he had been taught to parra roll, or how to do a safety jump, as he landed flat footed. Luckily no breaks, just jarred the f*ck out of his ankles. So getting back to it, upset kids freak me out. lmao.

Jimmy

 

[Wagon]

Man, two small girls. Who i am thankful for. But that crying puts me on edge. I do anything and everything to stop it. Reminds me of people crying on the ship, in their sleep or otherwise. I just think there should be no pain like this for children. I know it is a part of life, but it puts me in a different place. I have not seen them since my "break down"but I don't k exactly know how I am going to handle it. Going to see them in two weeks. And my wife.

This is kind of like I'm meeting people for the first time, or the second time, but this is different. With all my emotions. Like I'm really returning from sea now. Not sure how to handle all this. But I'm giving it a go. First session with the shrink is Thursday.

Peace
Wagon