Gyno Appt Today After Tdoc ...ugh

[Hlost]

Omg, I'm here again, :(, all weekend on the 2 heating pads. I'm calling this morning and pleading my case, I have no choice the pain feels just like it did before they went in before, it's hovering around 9-10. I finally did a short walk this morning but creeping up under my ribcage as well, it may be my imaginations but I swear I can feel these creepy crawly adhesions sticking to every organ and bone inside my torso again making it painful and difficult to breathe and find a comfortable position :goingtocry:.

My husband listened to my fearful tearful rant yesterday as I tried to explain that I wasn't being lazy and he popped off to store coming home with roasted chicken and another heating pad :thankyou:. I guess he will try to get a day off to go with me. He doesn't say much, he is more of a doer.

I'm remembering you when I make that call and tell them what's up. I am going to ask for urgency appt. Thanks for all your thoughts. Geez here we go again....:vomit:

 

[Hlost]

I called, I told her, I have an appt, I now conflict with another appt and have to decide which is more important. I figure it will be this.

 

[Hlost]

Okay, I made it. It was...I made it.
I really don't remember a lot of my morning but it was horrific prior to going. I had some pretty horrendous issues with bathing and getting dressed. I more than likely would not have gone if it weren't for my husband.It's hard to even think about how I reacted.

(Crap, I just wrote a bunch of stuff out and I erased it somehow........blech....I'll write it later)

I have to schedule some tests this morning and see my tdoc.

Thank you so much for your support.
HLost

 

[Nyx]

Well done! I knew you would make it:thumbsup:

 

[Lucycat]

Fantastic. Another one over. Another thing to stop having to worry about.

 

[Hlost]

Thanks all :)

I have blood work today and CT with contrast on Tuesday. We'll see after that. She was vague or I just wasn't really listening. I did realize as I was answering her questions that a few things were different. She did mention ruling out bowels or that after a hysterectomy they move blah blah blah, all I could visualize was everything turning me inside out through my vagina again when the dr first mentioned getting the stupid thing :faint: so I stopped listening to that train of her thought. I jumped back in with the pain is very much like the adhensions, doesn't seem any different.

The CT test seems a little more involved that I thought but not invasive so I can do it on my own.

Cheers to the blood work, at least it's fasting ;)

HL

 

[Powder]

:affection:Hlost, how do you feel now that the initial appointment is done? I'm proud of you for taking a support person (your H) and putting your needs as first and prioritizing. This is important work that we all do in different ways. Thanks for sharing it and for doing it. Well done!

I am in a similar situation with EMDR: to go or not to try it. My C. said she had it done in town and it was HORRIBLE and a setback. She said the person was not very good. So I have fear that in my crappy town, there is no good person. But I didn't give into the fear and still asked questions about from my other support person at the hospital who does my meds. She gave me a name. I need to do a little research and give that office a call with some questions. Just need to do it. My toddler has the tummy virus, so I've not slept in three nights; giving myself a little grace to time it for when I can think clearly.

Another thing is: now that the initial appointment is done, give yourself a pat on the back and promise to not allow yourself to be rushed into actions. Give yourself time to research and think about your options before feeling obliged to give an answer. With PTSD, we need more time to sort through options, and that's not necessarily a bad thing. Often we can come up with great problem-solving based on that need.

Hoping you feel better soon and find out what the problem(s) are. Sometimes it is a host of related issues, not just one diagnosis. So remember that, and work backwards from where you are now to what health issues you have had in the past to connect the dots. But don't do so until you are not in pain and have been well rested. :applause:Muse

 

[Hlost]

But don't do so until you are not in pain and have been well rested

Unfortunately I'm never NOT in pain so that's really not an option but I appreciate the thought and love your post :)

I am set back with a migraine episode, just as well because then I don't have to think one way or another about the test this coming week. I just want it over. I got it as soon as possible so that's great and some how jumped through all the ridiculous hoops. Now I have 2 days not to do a dang thing.

Monday starts the preprep. whoopee kiyaaaaa.

;)
HL