Hard Period

[cantwaitforittostop]

I have been diagnosed with suffering with PTSD.

I try to avoid triggers and at the moment everything is triggering me, I feel physically sick.

I suffered domestic violence.

I saw a woman on the street on Sat night, she was naked, cut a long story short she'd been attacked and imprisoned and raped. The police took statements etc.

Now since then I've been having nightmares and I am exhausted. I was not raped but once I had to run out and other times tried to because he was attacking me, I felt again how I did and I still have that feeling now and I just can't make it go away.

Trying to tell myself that it wasn't me, I should not be taking this upset to myself, that poor woman, I am being selfish but it jsut wont stop.

I am thinking in the day all of the time about it, remembering different incidents, there are so many and it's like it's all in one big long reel just watching them all.

I have also had an email from my ex, saying sorry, explaining why but I thought I would have lots of questions and I thought it may actually help, well no, it appears to have made it worse.

How can I make it settle to not this bad, I need some sleep too. I am still awaiting a therapist, only refferred 8 wks ago.

Thanks xx

 

[Deleted member 541]

It's hard to make the thoughts stop. Sometimes takes a long time, only to be replaced with different ones. The vicious cycle of negative thoughts that come with PTSD can be so draining....

Working on facing your trauma and your triggers will actually help you. Yes you will feel like crap in the beginning, but after awhile you will start to feel better and things won't be so hard...

As far as that woman who had been assaulted, yes it must have been awful for her, but you are not being selfish to want it to stop... You're human, in pain and you want this to stop, that's NOT being selfish...

As far as the sleep issue...Sorry, but I am having the same problems right now. There is tons of info here on the forum that you can read on that plus other things, so I suggest that you read, read, and read some more.....

 

[cantwaitforittostop]

Thanks for your reply.

No, I probably wouldn't think someone else was being selfish but it's what you do to yourself hey!

God feel like everything triggers it at the min, from a smell to a sound, is so annoying.

I am just so tired all of the time, are you? I went to the Dr on Friday he has given me some sleeping pills, I haven't tried them yet as I have 2 young ones and they still wake in the night at times so I may take one tonight when my Partner can get up with them and I can have a bit of a lie in tomorrow, i'm just worried they'll make me feel groggy tomorrow. Don't even know what they're called, I never actually looked, will have to look and look them up on the net.

I hate it when I wake up, I wake up really angry and upset and feel hurt, is madness so then that sets a bad day off straight away. I can usually get on with it in the day, 2 young kids to entertain makes you press on, is usually of an evening when I sit down and then at night when it becomes worse!

Thanks again for your reply adn going to do the reading.

xxx

 

[trial'n'error]

Hi,
I hope you are finding some peace. I came in to say, if you have a chance to beat the insomnia, try to do it if you can! My dr. prescribed Trazodone for me about two months ago, it's the first time since I can remember that I have slept decently (not counting episodes of drunkenness from my youth). Getting enough sleep makes it easier for me to tackle any issue, including intrusive thoughts and anxiety attacks. Try the pills next chance you get, when you have support for the kids of course. It might change your life.
Peace,
trial'n'error

 

[Deleted member 541]

Sleep is really important. I think if we can at least sleep fairly well during the night it helps us to be able to deal better with the assaults of PTSD during the day...

 

[midi]

Sleep is so very important. If I'm short on it, the next day is a complete write off.

 

[Ichiriki]

Absolutely, sleep is most important. You have to have time to rest your body. Have you listened to progressive muscle relaxation or visual imagery recordings? They work great. If you don't have any, send me a note and I'll forward you a couple you can access and download for free.