Angela Orman
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...as many people I'msure in here have. 16 years in emergency services. What else is there to say? I'm here because while I'm not, I feel very alone right now.
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Have Almost Lost Hope...
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Welcome Angela....hope you find peace and acceptance here. I know I have!
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Angela Orman
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Thank you very much, Potter.
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16 years in Emergency Services means you have outlasted probably a good 85-90% of your peers and like my best friend has been telling me you have every right to be proud of the things you have accomplished. I do not know what to say to address most real in depth PTSD issues most of the time because i don't understand my own PTSD just yet, having been just diagnosed withint he past 6 months (although I probably figured I had it a while before the diagnosis) but one thing I can say is that it helps to hear that you have a right to know that you have helped people in your occupational field. As a former Medical Professional myself I know that YOU HAVE DONE GOOD FOR SOMEONE SOMEWHERE.
..... and do not ever lose that hope. You obviously have not lost as much as you might think or else you would not have bothered coming here and trying to find support. Sometimes we have whole resevoirs of the good right along with the bad....For my own self, I find that it is just that sometimes the bad overshadows the good and we tend to forget the good is there because of that reason...
As I said I do not know much about PTSD my own self and am stilll learning but I think you will be finding some good stuff, and good people, here who are really in the know, as it is a pretty good site if you want to really try to understand what might be happening with yourself. We all deserve every possibility at happiness that comes our way and regardless of how you are feeling I hope that you find some happiness, and can hold on to it, at least part of the time. Having worked in the medical field I know how hard it can be and at times I often wondered, and still do ruminate about, whether or not I ever actually helped any person at all but when I reeally think about it, I can always remember one person, somewhere in the back of my brain, that i know for a fact I was of help to and those memories, while hard to come by sometimes, always seem to help me keep going some how. I went into the medical profession knowing that I might not help everyone but I was pretty committed to helping SOMEONE> Now after having MANY failures and a few sucesses, i am ready to start helping MYSELF. People can call it selfish if they wish..I prefer to call it "'bout time". Hope you can get to that point too.
..... and do not ever lose that hope. You obviously have not lost as much as you might think or else you would not have bothered coming here and trying to find support. Sometimes we have whole resevoirs of the good right along with the bad....For my own self, I find that it is just that sometimes the bad overshadows the good and we tend to forget the good is there because of that reason...
As I said I do not know much about PTSD my own self and am stilll learning but I think you will be finding some good stuff, and good people, here who are really in the know, as it is a pretty good site if you want to really try to understand what might be happening with yourself. We all deserve every possibility at happiness that comes our way and regardless of how you are feeling I hope that you find some happiness, and can hold on to it, at least part of the time. Having worked in the medical field I know how hard it can be and at times I often wondered, and still do ruminate about, whether or not I ever actually helped any person at all but when I reeally think about it, I can always remember one person, somewhere in the back of my brain, that i know for a fact I was of help to and those memories, while hard to come by sometimes, always seem to help me keep going some how. I went into the medical profession knowing that I might not help everyone but I was pretty committed to helping SOMEONE> Now after having MANY failures and a few sucesses, i am ready to start helping MYSELF. People can call it selfish if they wish..I prefer to call it "'bout time". Hope you can get to that point too.
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Hi Angela,
Welcome to the forum. I hope that you find the support you need here and some comfort. Please do keep sharing and checking out the site. There are many resources here for various needs and questions. And there is always support.
Welcome to the forum. I hope that you find the support you need here and some comfort. Please do keep sharing and checking out the site. There are many resources here for various needs and questions. And there is always support.
Dear Angela,
I don't know anything of you, and of course there are so many ways in which a person can be, and feel, alone. What I am writing about here is just one little side of it. I don't presume that it is what you might mean by, "alone".
I was an EMT at the World Trade Center on 9-11 and took a bad beating that day- physically and emotionally. As with things like the Iraq war, the WTC is well known - so at least people know in a vague way where I might be coming from.
But I know, and you probably know a lot better then I do, that in emergency services almost all of what happens to you emotionally is never seen or acknowledged by anyone else. And in that way, it is very very alone.
There are images that haunt, things that no one should ever see. But you probably have. Screams no one should ever hear. But you probably have. You alone.
But in another way, we are not alone. There are other images, other screams, and those have been seen and heard by other people. So maybe even though no one else has had your unique experience, there may well be other people who can relate to it. In that way, maybe, we are not so alone.
I don't know anything of you, and of course there are so many ways in which a person can be, and feel, alone. What I am writing about here is just one little side of it. I don't presume that it is what you might mean by, "alone".
I was an EMT at the World Trade Center on 9-11 and took a bad beating that day- physically and emotionally. As with things like the Iraq war, the WTC is well known - so at least people know in a vague way where I might be coming from.
But I know, and you probably know a lot better then I do, that in emergency services almost all of what happens to you emotionally is never seen or acknowledged by anyone else. And in that way, it is very very alone.
There are images that haunt, things that no one should ever see. But you probably have. Screams no one should ever hear. But you probably have. You alone.
But in another way, we are not alone. There are other images, other screams, and those have been seen and heard by other people. So maybe even though no one else has had your unique experience, there may well be other people who can relate to it. In that way, maybe, we are not so alone.
Lionheart
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Welcome to the forum Angela, I hope you find healing, comfort, and peace here.
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