Heart ❤️ Won't Stop Beating So Fast After Talking W T

[Muted]

Sorry to hear about your T, are they a trauma specialist? That really seems to make a HUGE differenc...

Yes, she is and she's wonderful, but idk if some of this is more my issue... I can't imagine going to anyone else.

 

[Jadie Rose]

@Jadie Rose this has been another common theme for me: I can't turn back or undo...

Thank you, again, for your words. This will help me as more and more comes up (and out), recognizing (hopefully) I am not alone in this crazy journey where nothing can be planned ahead of time. I have distanced myself from so many family and friends and realize (after reading your words) as much as I may want them around, it's both in my best interest, and theirs, to keep the distance. That made a really significant impact on me, your share. May we both find some peace, at some times, during this journey!! :hug:

 

[Deleted member 37474]

OMG I have never felt this way before. I was so scared talking w T after dbt class, could not think...

And this is why my brain tells me I need therapy, but I just won't set it up. I tried to say my trauma out loud in the car once, and I couldn't. No words work. I can sometimes say one small detail out loud to a friend, but can't speak beyond that!

 

[Jadie Rose]

And this is why my brain tells me I need therapy, but I just won't set it up. I tried to say my trauma...

I totally understand, it is not easy going through that (confusing, embarrassing, feel a bit crazy like what is happening...). But, I just started with trauma/neuro psychiatrist and therapists a few months ago and they will actually not look at you strangely nor judge anything that happens - they are trained to actually help you finish your sentences from your jumbled info you speak and know in your head you are able to sometimes put it together and so even though you can't speak it aloud, I have found I can still nod my head yes to them putting the pieces together. Perhaps it is because I hit rock bottom and went numb inside and black a few months ago (I feel zero emotions now and just don't give a f*** way too often and knew things were wrong 2.5 years ago and sought out help forever and no Dr's listened/understood and now I know I NEED the help or else I will try and commit suicide again because I just can't turn my feelings on again and who the f*** cares anymore??).

When you feel up to it, maybe try out a trauma team and take your time opening up, they totally understand!

 

[Recovering]

OMG I have never felt this way before. I was so scared talking w T after dbt class, could not think...

That happens to me regularly. You were having either a physiological stress response or a full blown panic attack. It usually happens for me if the content of the conversation is stretching meet or triggering me. It can happen when there are intrusive noises that may not even scare me, logically but scares my physiology casing an overwhelm reaction. A response like that sometimes takes days to fully resolves. Meds and sleep help.

 

[One step at a time]

I asked her if what I was doing was normal and she said no. Great.

To quote my own T, it is a normal response to abnormal life experiences. For me, talking to myself in a similar way is a healthy and important coping mechanism, and not at all a reason for someone to up my meds (if I were on any).

@Jadie Rose, sometimes, I have had conversations with my T where I write all of my responses in a notebook and then pass it to her, and she speaks her response (sometimes, she asks my permission to read my response out loud before responding. That can be very overwhelming for me - I rarely am okay with hearing the stuff I wrote out loud).
This might also help you?

 

[Deleted member 8714]

I hate that feeling like you may have a heart attack...the physical things that come up are just shocking sometimes.

That happened to me in 2010 through 2012 when I remembered what my psychopathic, serial killer father had done. My heart raced all the time and I had to see a cardiologist. The doctor told me he could imagine that those kinds of memories would cause a racing heart and that I was brave to continue to go to therapy.

Along the way I discovered my body needed more magnesium and that helped with my palpitations except when I had a freaky nightmare and memory about my father.