Undiagnosed Hello All - Finally Considering Therapy For Childhood/adolescent Abuse, Chronic Illness

[ellebelle]

Hello.. I'm new to the forum and considering counseling for years of issues most likely stemming from a shitty childhood and 'checkered' adolescence.

Throughout the years I've coped through various modes of self-medication, and early on my anxiety apparently manifested into some form of chronic illness, but lately the effects are taking a toll on my young marriage.

I seemed to be rather functional until a recent (near sexual assault-like) incident sent me crawling back towards the edge... Now I'm just an emotional wreck and stressed about the toll my depression is taking on my husband.

I'm hoping to find some encouragement (and the guts) to finally do what is necessary to become the healthy partner he deserves, and maybe offer some support for others in my position as well.

 

[^^FlyingSolo^^]

Welcome to the forum.

 

[Maryann V]

Hi: I am new to the forum too. It took me over 35 years to finally seek help with my "checkered" past. But it took a nervous breakdown and the loss of a job, house and car to get there. I always thought I could just handle it. Well, "handling" it myself almost killed me.

I'm not saying therapy will fix everything, There are times when therapy is extremely hard because it forces you to deal with things you spent a lifetime hiding. But to have someone detached (no family member) there to listen, has made me begin to see things for what they really are. You will find that finally doing something just for you, to help you may just feel suprisingly good.

Best of luck.

 

[ellebelle]

Thanks guys.

 

[ms spock]

Welcome to the Forums

 

[a3a2]

Welcome, ellebelle,

Glad to hear you are considering counseling. It has helped me a lot.

 

[missmary]

ellebelle, we should chat! Or at least keep an eye on eachother- because I feel the same and think we are probably carrying a similar weight. Message me any time you want!

 

[Ruckster]

I can identify with self-medicating and hiding stuff for years.

 

[HangInThere]

Welcome ....Does anyone use chat..I never see anyone there?

Hang