Hi, I'm new here. I was just given the diagnosis of PTSD a week ago and my head is spinning. My father also had PTSD (service connected -- Vietnam era Vet). I also have the diagnosis of Schizoaffective disorder, bipolar type, so things might get a little interesting in my treatment plan.
My difficulties started, but don't end, with health problems and the response to them by a number of doctors. I'm not comfortable discussing anything in detail yet. I will tell you the health troubles are reproductive system based and that I am an ovarian and endometrial cancer survivor.
I have not been to my gyn oncologist in two years and I am six years out of my diagnosis now.
I very recently lost my mother to endometrial cancer and that has brought everything sharply into focus again. I lost my grandmother about a month and a half ago, my grandfather had a massive stroke (luckily he is recovering a lot of what he lost from that) a week before she died, and I lost my father about two years ago to a violent and sudden car accident where a tourist driving a motorhome failed to stop at a stop sign. I nearly lost my mother in that crash, she survived, one day her blood sugar dropped to 15 and I had to perform CPR on her, then the cancer got her.
It has been a rough haul. I can't say that I feel very hopeful that things will change for me. I feel horribly depressed, I feel completely alone in the world, and I'm flat-out miserable. My anxiety is through the roof. I can't relax at all. I'm always on edge, always looking for the next shoe to drop. I also can't sleep for anything.
One thing that really surprised me, while reading about PTSD earlier tonight, is how all of these physical things I have wrong with me might be related or even caused by the PTSD. Stuff like the pounding heartbeat and the rapid breathing and my GERD and other digestive issues.
There is so much more that I can't figure out how to say yet. But from what I've read so far, this seems like a good place to be.
Thanks fo reading.
My difficulties started, but don't end, with health problems and the response to them by a number of doctors. I'm not comfortable discussing anything in detail yet. I will tell you the health troubles are reproductive system based and that I am an ovarian and endometrial cancer survivor.
I have not been to my gyn oncologist in two years and I am six years out of my diagnosis now.
I very recently lost my mother to endometrial cancer and that has brought everything sharply into focus again. I lost my grandmother about a month and a half ago, my grandfather had a massive stroke (luckily he is recovering a lot of what he lost from that) a week before she died, and I lost my father about two years ago to a violent and sudden car accident where a tourist driving a motorhome failed to stop at a stop sign. I nearly lost my mother in that crash, she survived, one day her blood sugar dropped to 15 and I had to perform CPR on her, then the cancer got her.
It has been a rough haul. I can't say that I feel very hopeful that things will change for me. I feel horribly depressed, I feel completely alone in the world, and I'm flat-out miserable. My anxiety is through the roof. I can't relax at all. I'm always on edge, always looking for the next shoe to drop. I also can't sleep for anything.
One thing that really surprised me, while reading about PTSD earlier tonight, is how all of these physical things I have wrong with me might be related or even caused by the PTSD. Stuff like the pounding heartbeat and the rapid breathing and my GERD and other digestive issues.
There is so much more that I can't figure out how to say yet. But from what I've read so far, this seems like a good place to be.
Thanks fo reading.