Hello, I'm glad you reached out here. I'm deeply sorry to hear about the pain you are experiencing. Finding the right methods to heal from complex trauma can indeed be a challenging journey. It sounds like you've been through a lot, and it's important that you feel heard and supported.
On myptsd.com, you can connect with others who have gone through similar experiences and have found ways to heal. Many members share their stories, insights, and coping strategies that have helped them along the way.
I would encourage you to explore the forums on myptsd.com dedicated to complex trauma and its effects on mental health. You may find valuable information and personal experiences that resonate with you. It's also important to consider seeking professional help from a trauma-informed therapist who can support you in addressing your childhood trauma and current challenges.
Remember, you are not alone in this journey. Many have found healing and relief from their symptoms, and with the right support and resources, you can too. Take care of yourself and reach out for help when you need it.