DID Here it goes

[Punky143]

I'm being wisped away into another part. Today marks an anniversary of something I will never forgive myself for. It was by far the worst thing as a person, mom, and what I used to do at work. It was a total "accident" but for me it won't ever matter. I have detached myself from so so much and I know I'm missing out on so much. I am tired, my parts are tired wanting to throw the towel in. The world is going downhill fast, why wouldn't I isolate? I am and all my parts including new ones cannot make sense of any of it. It begs the same question over and over- why bother anymore

 

[Keen]

Sorry you're having a rough time with your DID. It is a tough condition!
Forgiveness doesn't mean excusing or absolving. It means being compassionate that you're a human, like everyone else. We all have weaknesses. We all do things we regret. Everyone has done multiple horrible things in their lives, everyone. To forgive says "that wasn't okay, but I understand I'm a weak human, I'm working to become better, I'm working to not do anything like that again."
I hope these words help. I'm sorry if they don't.
Just know you are not alone in this, a lot of us have DID and it makes life extra tough. But somehow we've gotta believe life is worth it. We have something to contribute, we can help other's lives be better.
Good luck,
Keen