Hey I'm Back..at Va...sitting In Parking Lot.

[Brokencop]

It's been a while guys..and girl.

Sitting in North Chicago VA's parking lot . Got an appt. in 1/2hr. Going through exposure therapy,,,just feel like a mess, god look a what I have become..what my life has become. I sure this sounds f*cked up but lately I just wish I was back there, lately I just have wanted to be back in the Sandbox, or back in my police uniform..climbing through burning wreckage looking for people....my life is such shit. I just want to be back in it so bad it hurts.

Well time to go in an wait.

 

[Zipperhead]

Give em hell

 

[Tim Cake]

Keep with the VA appointments gyrene! The ladder climb is steep and difficult, but it is worth the pain and effort.

 

[T^3]

I sure this sounds f*cked up but lately I just wish I was back there, lately I just have wanted to be back in the Sandbox, or back in my police uniform..

Nope doesn't sound f'd at all. You are not alone with that feeling at all. I've wished to be back many times. I even know exactly how long I have till I can no longer re-enlist. It's a difficult process exposure therapy. I'm doing a mixture of desensitization treatments, one on ones, CBT, DBT and group therapy each week for over a year. I am just now learning how to tread water. I struggle to keep my head above water, but I know I have made improvements. I know I am no longer denying my time in Mogadishu. I just find myself avoiding or distracting but not denying. It's a small improvement but it's an improvement.
I'm glad you went to your appointment