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[Im_A_Butterfly]

Greetings.

I am A Butterfly. I've gone through many metamorphic changes. My wings have been picked to pieces. My mind is scrambled somewhat, but I can still move.

I'm here to gleen and share what I can.

Butterfly blessings ʚϊɞ

 

[Ronin]

Hi.

Movement is good.

Can I ask what brought you here?

 

[ladee]

Welcome , hope you find the forums helpful and supportive. Hope to see you again.

 

[Im_A_Butterfly]

Can I ask what brought you here?

I was abused, verbaly, etc., at a former job..a job that I truly enjoyed. But a psycho supervisor targed me, knowing I was a strong person, but after gas lighting me, I now suffer from PTSD.

Never in my life did I think I would come.to this point, as I normally do well with difficult people. But this person took the cake. I'm surviving but different effects from the abuse, have taken a small sliver of my essence from meƪ(°,◦)ʃ

It's been a few years since I have worked, and don't feel that I can at this time..I'd like to say different, but my ability to focus, and remember things, is ruined....not the requirements for getting and keeping a job. ( •̅ ̯•̅)

That's not my only problem, but I won't bore you with the rest.

I'll stop here, as Its still a sore spot. One day I will get over this strange feeling...that I can't describe . When I do get over it, I'll be able to tell my experience without tears in my eyes.

Blessings
ʚϊɞ

 

[Im_A_Butterfly]

@ladee
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[ladee]

You get to set the pace of your writing and sharing. We will be here for you, when and if. So be as gentle with yourself as you can. None of this is easy. None of it. But you reached out, and we are reaching back to you. Just take your time.... you are not alone.

 

[StarChild]

Hi and welcome to the forum, are you in therapy?

 

[Im_A_Butterfly]

are you in therapy?

Not right now. I was. Then stuff started going south. My therapist found a better paying position , so I lost her. Called a local clinic, but they weren't accepting any new clients, so they sent me.to another therapist. After a few sessions, it just didn't feel right. I also called the local psychiatric clinic connected to the psychiatric hospital, but they're booked up over one whole year ! ( •̅ ̯•̅)

I'm seeing a practitioner,to keep.my meds straight. Problem is, its the same clinic where I started and lost my first good therapist. This clinic is going through too many changes[…losing their best therapist, to other jobs...better pay, or more specialized for veterans, etc] so I'm still looking. It's just as well. Money is tight, so I don't always have the copay available. Its been almost a year since I've seen a therapist. My meds practioner is going to suggest someone, but with the turnovers, and overloas of the staff they have now...I'll just have to see what she comes.up with. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

 

[StarChild]

Thank you for your answer. But you see me still wondering... Since you've chosen "Other" and not "Sufferer" for your introduction, are you officially diagnosed with PTSD, by a professional therapist? And if yes, why did you choose "Other"? So...I ask these questions, to get a better understanding of your situation, and not to "interrogate" you. Okay?

 

[intothelight]

Welcome and I love your butterfly analogy!

 

[Im_A_Butterfly]

Thank you for your answer. But you see me still wondering... Since you've chosen "Other" and not "Suf...

I'm so sorry..
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For the life of me, I'm not figuring out how to change from "other" , to
" sufferer" (°~°)>

 

[Lucycat]

Hi @Im_A_Butterfly
I see lots of squiggles in your posts that I am not able to understand. Is this some sort of code that you are using?