Sufferer Hi, Abandonment At Youth Followed By Multiple Trauma

[^^FlyingSolo^^]

Abandoned at age 12, without going into details it was traumatic to say the least, including no shelter, no one to trust, didn't know where to turn, it was extremely traumatizing as a child to be thrown out into the world without a clue how it works. Prior to the abandonment was rape by an uncle and abuse. I made it through my teens by lying about my age to get a job until I was 18. All of which were followed by my adulthood consisting of more trauma. A marriage to an alcoholic who abused me. Divorced and forced to raise my son alone, no family, no help, no education. It hasn't been easy and after 17 years of trials and tribulations of raising my son under ridiculous circumstances he left home at age 17 and basically abandoned me. He never calls, emails or visits. And when he does speak to me he's mostly rude.

I'm in isolation. In my apartment. I trust no-one. Some days are better than others. I just recently made it over a hump where I thought I wasn't going to make it. But I made it, and I have a few goals for myself for this year.

I look forward to the friendships I hope to make here.

Thanks for listening

 

[ericaboo]

Thanks for coming here. Now some other people don't feel so alone. Looking forward to getting to know you too.

 

[^^FlyingSolo^^]

:) Thank you ericaboo I appreciate your kind thoughts, hope to see you around the forum.

Take care

 

[Abrasky]

Welcome, Flying solo

 

[^^FlyingSolo^^]

Thank you Maze :)

 

[KP the nut]

Welcome to the forum.

This is a great place for information, support and as I have found, friendship. It is so good to read a post and realise that others 'get it' and that you are no longer alone.

Wishing you peace
KP

 

[^^FlyingSolo^^]

Thank you for your kind welcoming KP. :) I'm very glad to have found this forum. I cant really put into words my wonder and amazement of hearing these other stories and realizing so many others are going through exactly the same things as myself. I so closely identify with many of these posts I'm reading, I truly believe this forum will be wonderful place to share daily struggles, heal, support others, and make friendships. :)

 

[Gloria]

Dear FS,
I read your information on your profile. I am sorry that you are feeling isolated in your new home. I was agraphobic many times. I hate the cities and although some people think I'm crazy to live on a farm, I love it. I can't go into a lot of detail but I too have terrible abandonment issues and I wrote a thread on the Black Swan. It's a book about abandonment issues by Susan Anderson. It changed my life.
I am looking forward to being your friend and watching you blossum. Sometimes, people come on the forum and get overwhelmed by rules and too many triggers or whatever. Sometimes, people leave and give up. Please don't be one of those people that give up. If you stick with this and follow the recommendations for recovery and learn more about PTSD, you will recover. When you realize that every terrible thing that ever happened to you has also happened to someone else on this forum, you will not feel alone!
Many Blessings,
Gloria

 

[Helliepig]

Hi flying solo, thanks for your kind support on my thread and for sharing your story on here. It does really help when you realise other people understand how you feel as there are so many ways of feeling awful with PTSD! I hope that you can continue to share as your input is so very welcome and hopefully we can break some of this isolation and fear we feel xx

 

[Srain]

Welcome Flying,

I haven't formally welcomed you, I realized :).
I appreciate you sharing your journey here and support. I'm so sorry you have been through so much.

It's good you have found your way here to able to get the additional information as well as support for yourself. I was never sure that PTSD could really do the type of damage that it has done in my life but sadly it can, more importantly that there are ways out of it.

Take good care,
Rain

 

[^^FlyingSolo^^]

((((Thank you HP & Rain &b Gloria)))))))

Thank you guys for thinking of me :cry:. I'm having such a bad day. I just started crying when I saw these kind words.

Thank you for your friendship. It means more to me than you know. This forum is all I have right now.

Thanks & Hugggs :inlove:

 

[thematrix]

Hi FlyingSolo. I understand the isolation. Its a horrible thing. Once you start isolating it is very hard to stop. I am going to go out today! Something simple. AAAh! Shouldn't be that big of a deal, but it is to me.

I hope you are having a good today.:)