Sufferer Hi guys, another child abuse surviviour

[MoonCat]

Hi,

I've been diagnosed with PTSD as a result of growing up with a lot of physical, mental and emotional abuse at the hands of my father (I'm not sure about sexual, because I have some gaps in my memory and actual blackouts after assaults when I'd wake up in my bad, missing several hours not knowing how I got there. However, I really don't think there was penetration, at least there were no signs that I can remember. But there were weird things like not having any locks in the house, not even on the bathroom and bedroom doors, so he could walk in whenever, and he tried taking photos of me topless once with some weird pretence, so who knows what he did when I was out).

I'm 28 now and still suffer from my childhood. I'm not as stress-resistant as other people and not as far in my life regarding my own family or career as I'd like to be.

I take antidepressants and do therapy and have a pretty supportive boyfriend, so all is relatively good. The only thing left is to process the memories and try to make the flashbacks and nightmares go away.

Anyway, glad I found this forum.

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome! :hug:

 

[littleoc]

I'm glad you found the forums, then! This is a perfect place to help you get on with recovery :)

Depending on the nature of the photos, it could be sexual abuse -- though you can figure that out for yourself when you're ready. I wish you all the luck :)

 

[ladee]

Welcome, very happy you found us, not happy for the reason tho. You will find a lot of support and understanding here. Many experiences, and lots of healing !!!

Take your time and look around. Glad you are here.

 

[Still Standing]

Hi MoonCat! I am glad that you found us. This is a great site to utilize to help educate, support, encourage, and listen you about walking with PTSD. It has been a wonderful resource for myself and I am sure it will be for you, too. Child abuse is many of our histories. This is a safe place to talk about it and find camaraderie. We understand and sympathize and empathize for all who hurt from this. I hope you jump right in and find your voice here. Welcome.

 

[Angelwings]

Hi,

I've been diagnosed with PTSD as a result of growing up with a lot of physical, mental and emotion...

@MoonCat welcome! I find it interesting that you put the word "only" in front of "process the memories and try to make the flashbacks and nightmares go away." That seems like quite the task for me. Is it easier now that you've been in therapy for a while?

 

[Deleted member 46411]

I really identified with what you said about being less stress-resistant. I’m new too - welcome.

 

[Swift]

Welcome!
Hope we can help you.