Sufferer Hi & Help!!

[tillybee]

Hi to all - new here dont no if im ready for this but its a step in the right direction

 

[nomedic1]

Welcome tillybee their are great people here who can help

 

[tillybee]

Thats good to know im a bit stuck

 

[Tony93720]

Welcome aboard. This is definitely a step in the right direction :-)

 

[tillybee]

Thanks!! I'm in denial so this is HUGE for me

 

[Barconian]

new here dont no if im ready for this but its a step in the right direction

What aren't you ready for?

 

[tillybee]

To admit, to accept, any of it really, still holding on to that old happy me - if I accept this then I brand myself (my personal opinion), if I don't accept it I can't get better. It's a lose/lose situation.

 

[MuddyWaters]

Hi Tillybee,

I don't look at it as lose / lose. I was numb for so long that to finally feel something, anything, even the bad, was a win.

It is scary when you first step into it but it's also a relief and a release, to finally be able to understand what it is that has been happening to you. Get a good doctor who specialises in PTSD it'll make the world of difference to you. And you're right, you have to accept it to get better. I wish you all the best:)

 

[tillybee]

Hi, I know your right. It's just the way I look at it. See to accept the PTSD I also have to accept the various types of abuse I've suffered over the years. If I am to accept that then I'm not sure I can function. I guess I'm stuck. You have got abit further on your journey I see. I look forward to your positives, the advice & experiences you may be able to share with me. I hope I head in your direction feels a little sunnier there :) thank you!

 

[MuddyWaters]

And it's totally okay if you can't function for a while, there's no shame in that. This is the time to be gentle toward yourself and be selfish too, do what you need to do to be okay. I've always been a really positive, happy, strong person, yet I completely caved for a while. I couldn't leave home for six months other than to go to therapy. It was definitely the darkest, most painful period of my life but I knew it wasn't forever and that's what got me through.

I just took it a day at a time. I couldn't think in terms of months or years, if I did that I was too overwhelmed. You may come out a little battered and bruised and different to who you used to be, but for me it's definitely a better me. I live with absolute authenticity now and feel everything there is to feel. That is far better than being able to feel nothing at all. I may be further along than you but there are others who are further along than me too. You will eventually head in this direction, it just takes a little time. Hugs to you:hug:

 

[Barconian]

if i accept this then i brand myself (my personal opinion), if i dont accept it i cant get better. It's a lose/lose situation.

That's quite interesting... I believe your answer is very good, welcome @tillybee . It is possible to have a win/win too you know :)

 

[tillybee]

You are like the PTSD motivators! Which is exactly what I need now been stuck here long enough. Your positives have made me feel better today & I know theres hope for me yet lol! I will take both of your advice on board because it's genuine, from someone who knows. This is the first time I've spoken to other sufferers today & I wish I'd done it ages ago. Thank you all for sharing with me - I really do believe you lifted my spirit :) i'll take the hugs because I need them & I send them back too xxx