Anthraseen
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Hi
I just read your thread. My pdoc just told me I had PTSD the other day. I've been living with it a couple years but it's coming to that point where the coping skills need to be developed- no easy job.
My situation has not been easy. It's not war or rape, sort of annoyance and lots of it- Stalking. I'll spare you the gist of it but in the end he tried to break into my home in the middle of the night with a ski mask and if it weren't for a friend who saw him and called 911 I wouldn't be here today. That situation worked itself out because he was put in jail for a while. And out of my mind.
He did come back though. Thus the trigger came back and I moved out again back to a "comfortable" place.
I do this every time the trigger comes back but he's not the only trigger, it's a lot of situations that are similar to stalking like if I see someone following me I freak. Right now he's under control so I'm not worried about that.
But there is a new situation with a person who I believe is obsessed (again!) with me. Packages, letters, texts... So I now am on guard xxxx more.
I was at the grocery today and this poor innocent man was behind me in line and I was stressed today and he got too close and when I got to my car he looked over at me I thought he was a creep and I gave him a dirty look.
It's like every guy is a creep when I see a stalker trigger. I am working on this. I realize this is not true. It is so hard. But I feel like I am in a sense in a battlefield filled sometimes with nothing but men who want to hurt and manipulate me for their own pleasure and eventually my life may be at risk.
Every night I secure my door with this thing my friend showed me- u can get it at Lowe's (it's like a stick made by MasterLock). I fear I might be killed in my sleep by my stalker every night.
I hope this isn't too heavy. This is my world. I have a lot of support, family friends NOT suicidal. I have lots of fun:) outlets for this stalking thing which without I don't know how I'd survive!
A.
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I just read your thread. My pdoc just told me I had PTSD the other day. I've been living with it a couple years but it's coming to that point where the coping skills need to be developed- no easy job.
My situation has not been easy. It's not war or rape, sort of annoyance and lots of it- Stalking. I'll spare you the gist of it but in the end he tried to break into my home in the middle of the night with a ski mask and if it weren't for a friend who saw him and called 911 I wouldn't be here today. That situation worked itself out because he was put in jail for a while. And out of my mind.
He did come back though. Thus the trigger came back and I moved out again back to a "comfortable" place.
I do this every time the trigger comes back but he's not the only trigger, it's a lot of situations that are similar to stalking like if I see someone following me I freak. Right now he's under control so I'm not worried about that.
But there is a new situation with a person who I believe is obsessed (again!) with me. Packages, letters, texts... So I now am on guard xxxx more.
I was at the grocery today and this poor innocent man was behind me in line and I was stressed today and he got too close and when I got to my car he looked over at me I thought he was a creep and I gave him a dirty look.
It's like every guy is a creep when I see a stalker trigger. I am working on this. I realize this is not true. It is so hard. But I feel like I am in a sense in a battlefield filled sometimes with nothing but men who want to hurt and manipulate me for their own pleasure and eventually my life may be at risk.
Every night I secure my door with this thing my friend showed me- u can get it at Lowe's (it's like a stick made by MasterLock). I fear I might be killed in my sleep by my stalker every night.
I hope this isn't too heavy. This is my world. I have a lot of support, family friends NOT suicidal. I have lots of fun:) outlets for this stalking thing which without I don't know how I'd survive!
A.
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