I finally caved a few years back... because there weren’t any private therapists within a 5 hour drive who had any experience with vets.The denial is on me, never talked to the VA about my issue and my violent service experience.
I got really lucky with my VA T -- she is a vet and now in the NG, so she gets it. Sadly she is the only vet they have on staff.Not the VA, I still won’t touch them with a 10’ pole dripping with Rottweilers. But the VetCenter. Totally different admin and 1 way info flow. They can ask the VA for anything they want, but the VA can’t ask them for shit. Their mandate is MST & Combat.