Hi, Newbie, Childhood & Adulthood Trauma, Abuse

[DethBlossom75]

Hello everyone.

I'm almost 36. My father is a Vietnam veteran. My mother has depression, anxiety and schizophrenia. I have suffered abuse both in my childhood and adulthood-physical, emotional/verbal/mental and sexual. I have a diagnosis of major depression and have been treated with antidepressants before. Have not been on any medication in almost two years.

I do not have an official diagnosis of PTSD but I know exhibit every single symptom/sign. I am also an addict in recovery.

I am no medical expert but I do hold a degree in psychology and hope to pursue another degree in counseling at some point.

I'm planning to see another therapist soon and to see if I can get back on some medication again.

I have struggled with this for most of my life alone with no support or validation from family. Most days I'm okay but when the bad times hit, I'm having a harder and harder time dealing with it.

I'm glad I found this place and I hope to connect with others. If anyone has any questions they would like to ask me, please feel free.

I'm a pretty open person about things.

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[The Albatross]

Welcome DethBlossom75 to the forum, very glad you're here.

 

[DethBlossom75]

Thank you Albatross. I don't know why but I'm just having a really hard time today. My anxiety level is pretty high and so is the depression.

 

[The Albatross]

Well, this forum is a new endeavor for you... so the anxiety may be from "doing something new" or "taking a risk". Depression.. well that's part and parcel of the territory. Do some stress reduction, do something calming and loving for yourself... and determine to make life affirming choices, eh? :O_o:

 

[DethBlossom75]

Yes very true. Most days I'm fine but then I'll have days like today when everything just seems to hit me at once.

 

[Sandra]

Welcome to the forum.