Hi, Newbie Here. Sexual Abuse, Rape, Nde.

[olaja]

Ok, writing that title was awful. NDE, for anyone who does not know, and is curious, is Near Death Experience. This introduction is very painful to write, and this is my 3rd attempt. I hope I can add to the discussions here, and have no intention of breaking the strict rules from admin. I am just going to panic about them for a while before I post.:eek:

I am going through a new phase where I am not dissociating much, nor shutting down in a puddle of anxiety and fear, which is good. On the other hand, I am not yet able to regulate all the anger/rage that surfaces in place of the fear. It is exhausting and unfamiliar. So, I am here!

Peace everyone. <3

 

[Froggie]

Welcome to the forum olaja. I think you describe very well your situation. I agree with you that the subject of NDE can be a touchy one, I'm sure you will find it easier to discuss this in the private chat room on a one-to-one basis or through the private message (Inbox). As for the sexual abuse and rape, there is a sister forum which is specific to all members having had this type of trauma : [DLMURL]http://sexabuse.ptsdforum.org[/DLMURL] and I'm sure you will find some who can relate to your fears and other symptoms.

 

[CraftyCath]

Hi and welcome olaja! There are a lot of people who have had similar experiences to yourself here. The forum is a safe place to share and non-judgmental. Thank you for sharing.

 

[olaja]

Thank you Froggie and CraftyCath for your warm welcomes!

 

[intothelight]

Hi Olaja,

Welcome to the PTSD Forum. Your first post was wonderful, and be proud of yourself for completing it, as that first step is one of the hardest.

Handling emotion is one of the most difficult aspect of PTSD, and many times as you recover, you'll find emotions that are really hard to identify. The site has great information as you work on healing, and the support of the other members is amazing. It just feels good to know one is not fighting this alone.

Take care.
Debbie

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum. You are not alone, a lot people share the experiences you have ( including me).

Welcome :)

 

[Anna]

Welcome to the forum :)

I also find it almost impossible to go into any details of what happened to me
I discovered also this forum as well:-

[DLMURL]http://sexabuse.ptsdforum.org/[/DLMURL]

It is more tuned to people who have survived sexual abuse.

 

[jo may]

Hi olaja and welcome to the PTSD forum:)

I have been through a lot like yourself, I truly hope you find the support you need.
I would like to send you a big hug ((((olaja))))

 

[Rob_Dog19]

Aloha Olaja :) welcome to the forum!!!