Undiagnosed Hi, Recovering From Ongoing Physical/emotional Abuse

[BlueFighter]

I hope to start recovering from my past. I deal with insomnia and nightmares during the little sleep I get. I was in a serious relationship with a girl for three and a half years. The last two and half years of that relationship became violent and twisted. It has been over 6 months, but the guilt and shame associated with that relationship continues to interfere with my daily life. I have become noticeably self-destructive. I often go into a panic over nothing. My life has left me feeling broken, worthless, and as though I have lost my humanity. I hope to gain some control over my life, so I can be honest with my friends and family without hurting them.

Thank you and I look forward to getting to know you all better.

 

[Greg Clark]

Hi James
Yeah, I suffered from physical beatings and emotional abuse from quite a young age. I've found that the more I tried to just play it down, the deeper it would hide until one day, it would just rear its' ugly head like an unimaginable nightmar and I would feel like I was going crazy.

I think that the Trauma stays hidden away coz we don't know how to deal with it. I mean, who does know how to deal with something like that anyway? It's funny how the people that cause trauma in our lives go on to lead somewhat normal lives without recognising or being held responsible for the destruction they've left behind in their wake.

All I can tell you is that I'm still strugging with some of these issues and I'm hoping that life will bring me the things I need to let them go some day.
I hope you're feeing better.
Regards,
Greg.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Welcome to the forum!

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SOL