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During the 1st week of September I had attempted suicide by overdosing on a box of Oxycodone tablets. The police found me in time, and obviously, I survived that. A week later, I was "mugged" walking to McDonalds with a group of friends at night time after coming back from a carnival. It was around 8:30pm and we were atleast 100m away from McDonalds when a car pulled up alongside the road and a bunch of people jumped out and raced over towards us asking us for money, drugs, smokes, alcohol etc, anything that they could think of.We denied having anything and tried to keep walking.
There was two guys and one girl, the girl grabbed onto the back of my hair and pulled me back towards her and spun me around and punched me in the face. The two guys that were there were targeting the two guys that I was with. My other friend was trying to pull the girl off of me, the next thing I remembered was waking up on the ground with one of my guy friends above me asking me if I was okay. I asked where the people had gone and apparently a car had driven past and they had fled.
We then all linked arms and tried walking to McDonalds. We got there and we sat on the closest seats, my lip and head were bleeding and my friend, Jordan, went and got me a bottle of water. Everything was fuzzy and I could hardly remember anything that had happened. I then remember my arm starting to twitch and I told my friend that we needed to call an ambulance, she said that I should just sleep it off and the next thing I knew I woke up on the McDonalds couch with two security guards standing above me, I was as confused as anything. Turns out that I had, had a seizure. I had atleast another 10 seizures before the ambulance that the security guards had called arrived.
I was admitted in the hospital over night and then had multiple CT scans the next day to make sure there was no bleed in my brain. Everything looked okay, and I was released the next day with the complete right side of my face bruised and swollen.
That's my story.
I'm posting another thread soon with a problem that I am currently having. Feel free to read and advise me on that also?
That's my story.
It's just started happening recently that I have become more on edge, and I've become more paranoid and more easily startled. I was in the front room of my house last night at about 12/1am assembling a desk with my father. My neighbours dogs started barking and I immediatley felt my heart drop, all I could think about was somebody outside my window about to climb in and kill us all. I grabbed the hammer that we were using and crawled underneath the half built desk. My dad didn't take any notice of it, but I was completely petrified. I pretty much "zoned out" and ignored what he was saying and listened outside for any sign that the "people" were getting closer.
I've started having nightmares, I had a nightmare the other night that there was somebody outside my window texting my phone, telling me that they had a knife and they were going to come in and kill me, I woke up panicked and locked my windows and turned my phones off.
Everytime that I hear my neighbours dogs bark at night time I will panic and think that somebody is outside planning killing me. Everytime I hear people walking past my house, even in the daytime I assume it's somebody going to kill me.
I don't know if this is related to the mugging, but it's starting to affect my life. I've just created an office in the front room of my house and everytime I hear a noise outside, I will leave the room and go hide in my bedroom, thinking somebody is out there waiting for me.
I don't know what to do.
I CANNOT. I put emphasis on that word, CANNOT see a psychologist/doctor/psychiatrist. I've used up all my "payed for" sessions from medicare to see a private psychologist. I also refuse, deadset refuse to see a public psychologist in the town that I live in. I've had numerous issues with them in the past when I was dealing with my depression/suicidal ideation. I'll never go back there again.
There was two guys and one girl, the girl grabbed onto the back of my hair and pulled me back towards her and spun me around and punched me in the face. The two guys that were there were targeting the two guys that I was with. My other friend was trying to pull the girl off of me, the next thing I remembered was waking up on the ground with one of my guy friends above me asking me if I was okay. I asked where the people had gone and apparently a car had driven past and they had fled.
We then all linked arms and tried walking to McDonalds. We got there and we sat on the closest seats, my lip and head were bleeding and my friend, Jordan, went and got me a bottle of water. Everything was fuzzy and I could hardly remember anything that had happened. I then remember my arm starting to twitch and I told my friend that we needed to call an ambulance, she said that I should just sleep it off and the next thing I knew I woke up on the McDonalds couch with two security guards standing above me, I was as confused as anything. Turns out that I had, had a seizure. I had atleast another 10 seizures before the ambulance that the security guards had called arrived.
I was admitted in the hospital over night and then had multiple CT scans the next day to make sure there was no bleed in my brain. Everything looked okay, and I was released the next day with the complete right side of my face bruised and swollen.
That's my story.
I'm posting another thread soon with a problem that I am currently having. Feel free to read and advise me on that also?
That's my story.
It's just started happening recently that I have become more on edge, and I've become more paranoid and more easily startled. I was in the front room of my house last night at about 12/1am assembling a desk with my father. My neighbours dogs started barking and I immediatley felt my heart drop, all I could think about was somebody outside my window about to climb in and kill us all. I grabbed the hammer that we were using and crawled underneath the half built desk. My dad didn't take any notice of it, but I was completely petrified. I pretty much "zoned out" and ignored what he was saying and listened outside for any sign that the "people" were getting closer.
I've started having nightmares, I had a nightmare the other night that there was somebody outside my window texting my phone, telling me that they had a knife and they were going to come in and kill me, I woke up panicked and locked my windows and turned my phones off.
Everytime that I hear my neighbours dogs bark at night time I will panic and think that somebody is outside planning killing me. Everytime I hear people walking past my house, even in the daytime I assume it's somebody going to kill me.
I don't know if this is related to the mugging, but it's starting to affect my life. I've just created an office in the front room of my house and everytime I hear a noise outside, I will leave the room and go hide in my bedroom, thinking somebody is out there waiting for me.
I don't know what to do.
I CANNOT. I put emphasis on that word, CANNOT see a psychologist/doctor/psychiatrist. I've used up all my "payed for" sessions from medicare to see a private psychologist. I also refuse, deadset refuse to see a public psychologist in the town that I live in. I've had numerous issues with them in the past when I was dealing with my depression/suicidal ideation. I'll never go back there again.
