Sufferer Hi. Violent Childhood Abuse Survivor Looking For Help.

[Calen]

Hi.

I'm a survivor of violent emotional and physical abuse throughout my childhood, at home and at school, with a rape at 16 as a kind of sick exclamation point. I'm 50, and have been trying to heal (trying to figure what and how and why to heal) for over 30 years.

I don't have a support group. No friends I can talk with about any of this. If and when I've tried, they avoid me for months or years.

And, after an abusive boss, I find it really difficult to apply for jobs, my hands shake and I get very, very uncomfortable.

I'm broke, unemployed, and have no insurance. Hoping I can still find help with C-PTSD.

I'm not having a good time, in a not very good life. "Pleased" to make your acquaintance.

 

[safenow]

Hi Calen,

Welcome to the PTSD Forum. Sorry to hear what you went through. You found a good place, with lots of caring, supportive people. I do hope you at least have a safe place to live now. If you live in the States, there are clinics that go by a sliding scale. You might also try to find a case worker who can refer you in how to get some help. Once they learn about your past, there is help out there.

Back when you and I were young, they didn't have a lot in the way of help. and you are so correct, people don't want to hear about what you've been through. They don't want to know that the world isn't fair. It's much easier to keep your head buried in the sand. The good things about this forum, there are lots of us who do care. Many of us have been where you are now and are willing to listen. We know that talking (writing) about what you've been through can help in the healing journey.

Take your time, and look around. You will find a lot of good information here.

Nice to meet you.

 

[KP the nut]

Hi and welcome to the forum.

 

[intothelight]

Hi Calen,

Welcome to the PTSD Forum! :)

The information and support on this site can be invaluable as you work on healing. There is also a sister site you may find helpful: MySexAbuse.com. The link for this site can be found at the bottom of the page.

Take care.

Debbie

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum. :)