redheaded moppet
New Here
Hi, I'm new to the site (found it a few weeks ago after a google search), and decided to join after reading different posts for a while.
I was diagnosed late last fall after going through about 3 years of work-related trauma/stress/pressure primarily (I am a high school teacher). Different unresolved issues from childhood played a part too I'm sure, but the trigger was enduring about 2 1/2 years of emotional abuse and work situations with supervisors who were extremely micromanaging and seemingly nothing I did was right, though I've taught for many years and am a good teacher. Laid off last June, began a new teaching position last August after a big jobsearch, only to quickly realize the principal there was the same as what I'd just endured - reached my breaking point in November and abruptly resigned when I realized I had to heal emotionally, or else it was me or the job.
Have been going to counseling since and feeling more normal again since late spring, but still in limbo with work, etc. (jobsearching once again) and after all this not sure I want to go back into the classroom again and risk enduring more of the same...had some bad work nightmares/crying jags right after I resigned which partly led to the diagnosis.
Anyhow, that's my situation in a nutshell :confused:... and slowly but surely I'm healing, beginning to feel again, and have cried what seems like an ocean of tears :cry: since I walked out of my job after realizing I was beginning to have flashbacks, intense anger, and starting to shut down emotionally at work. Realizing as I continue to heal that PTSD seems to divide one's life into a "before" and "after" period, and trying to figure out who you are "after" isn't easy. :unsure:
Thank goodness for my T, some former work colleagues, college friends, church and my dog the last several months while I painfully try putting my life back together! :)
Redheaded Moppet
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I was diagnosed late last fall after going through about 3 years of work-related trauma/stress/pressure primarily (I am a high school teacher). Different unresolved issues from childhood played a part too I'm sure, but the trigger was enduring about 2 1/2 years of emotional abuse and work situations with supervisors who were extremely micromanaging and seemingly nothing I did was right, though I've taught for many years and am a good teacher. Laid off last June, began a new teaching position last August after a big jobsearch, only to quickly realize the principal there was the same as what I'd just endured - reached my breaking point in November and abruptly resigned when I realized I had to heal emotionally, or else it was me or the job.
Have been going to counseling since and feeling more normal again since late spring, but still in limbo with work, etc. (jobsearching once again) and after all this not sure I want to go back into the classroom again and risk enduring more of the same...had some bad work nightmares/crying jags right after I resigned which partly led to the diagnosis.
Anyhow, that's my situation in a nutshell :confused:... and slowly but surely I'm healing, beginning to feel again, and have cried what seems like an ocean of tears :cry: since I walked out of my job after realizing I was beginning to have flashbacks, intense anger, and starting to shut down emotionally at work. Realizing as I continue to heal that PTSD seems to divide one's life into a "before" and "after" period, and trying to figure out who you are "after" isn't easy. :unsure:
Thank goodness for my T, some former work colleagues, college friends, church and my dog the last several months while I painfully try putting my life back together! :)
Redheaded Moppet
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