thanks for the support, Today he talks about how he feels, I listen. I try not to talk and just allow him to talk about how he feels, I know somehow it helps him lessen the pain. It's hard to choose the right words to say, I know I will never understand what he's going through because I've never been to war. I got so worried when he told me he was rushed to E.R. because last July he stabbed his thigh once and gotten 6 stitches :(, He said he don't know he did that to himself, I don't want to panic and get mad at him for not telling me but part of me feels the need to be by his side. I was asking him to come home but things are complicated. Truth is I got more worried there's a lot that he's not telling me, all I can do is cry at my own time. I told him Is that I've known a strong man in him and he can get through this, in time it'll heal and he just continue to go to the therapy and make his daughter his strength and inspiration and that I'm here for him. True he has change a lot from the way he was towards me, not much time like before but I don't wanna get weak because of that. I know he needs my understanding and patience. I just cry if I feel sad and I miss the way he was, but later on I feel better. I know he'll be back from the way he was, funny today after he told me how he feels, he started singing, the words from his songs makes me feel of what he wants to say to me, that he is thankful he has me... Tears started falling down my eyes as he sing me these songs... He always tell me he's a changed man after getting back from Afghanistan but I know deep inside he's fighting it, he' still the same man I fell in love with, he always sing for me even before and today it made smile he sang again for me, took him about 5songs... :) those special times I treasure most, somehow it brought back smile to my face today.
