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[BlueDaisy]

Hi everybody :) , I'm 15 years old and it has been about 3 weeks now that I broke up with my boyfriend because I couldn't endure our relation anymore. It's been 5 years that I have been fighting a depression and it was getting finally over but it was all falling down again when I was with him I started cutting again and felt suicidal but didn't understand why but I only understood that it was our relationship that wasn't working.He goes to the same school as me and after I broke up every time I walked beside him I felt like trash and has if everybody was looking at me disgusted but anyway I understood last week that what he had done to me was sexual abuse even now I feel like it's my fault and don't know if it really is a sexual abuse or it's just me. After I realised that when I walk beside him my heart hurt, I start shaking, my body become numb and I feel like i'm going to fall to the ground..sorry for the bad grammar and all I'm french.(I live in Quebec)

 

[rainbow1]

Hi Bluedaisy :wave:. Welcome to the forum.

I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. It sounds like you have had a really difficult time. Do you have anyone you can talk to at home or at school?

Take care of yourself,
Rainbow :)

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum. :)

I am so sorry you are going through this and facing these things. I remember what it was like being depressed at that age and I encourage you to please find someone who is an adult to talk too. I urge you to seek professional help and fight for it. You deserve to be happy and live your life.

We are always here to offer support and advice the best we can.

Take care.

 

[Lucycat]

Hi BlueDaisy,
Welcome to the forum.:wave:

As the others have said I hope you have people to talk to and support you. This forum is great but it is not a replacement for real life help. Do you have a therapist or someone else to support you?

Best Wishes,
Lucy x

 

[cherryblossom]

Hi BlueDaisy,

Welcome to the forum :wave:

Whilst I totally agree with what others have said, this forum can't replace real life support.

However, I understand how difficult it can be to get real life support. I also understand that to get a therapist you may have to pay, and not have funds available to you. So this forum is here for you. Please keep talking to us here, and we will help as much as we can.

Have a good read around the forum, and feel free to start threads to discuss your issues. Sometimes this kind of internet support is the only support available for any number of reasons, so I just want you to know that we are hear to listen and help, if we can.

Take care

CB

BTW - your English is great! :)

 

[BlueDaisy]

Thank you all for your reply I feel less alone and yes I am very lucky I have my mother who is always here for me and my best friend and they know about it. My mother is going to call tomorow so I will get professional help, thanks again! :)