Hi

[Spock]

...The only real release I have is music I have been playing the piano for years, it's a good distraction but only last until my fingers are numb but I'm grateful for it. ...

Yes, the piano, same for me, some times working the keyboard is my best escape. It keeps me from thinking about anything else. I think I mentioned this elsewhere but many folks do all types of art therapy: music, drawing, writing, etc. You might keep a journal or write poems. It will help you release stuff and help when you go in for treatment to organize the time.

 

[JarHed]

I just hope there is a day that I don't dread getting out of bed but be excited to live.

That day is out there and it can come. You'll have to do some work to get there but it's all part of getting better. You don't have to do it alone, we're all here in the same boat. Let us know how we can help.

Jar

 

[Need an Oasis]

Welcome Rachel, as Jimmy said, feel free to PM me anytime! I'll try and help where I can.

 

[Lee C]

Welcome

 

[seniorboz]

From what I understand, a lot of us started just like you(I know I did). I have gone and seen a Clinical Psychologist and he didn't make me talk about anything I didn't want to talk about, and after being here for a little time, it's probably pretty common not to want to go down the "rabbit hole" as I call it, but this place is a safe place and you can get really great feed back and some great links and support. I asked some questions about therapy and this is the place that set me in the right direction. One things for sure, you not alone and anything going on, some or all of us have gone and are still going through the same things. Welcome.

 

[nomedic1]

Welcome UT the guys on here will definitely help you, keep on the meds it's the only way to get to a place where you can talk to your psych

 

[BaMuoiBa]

Welcome UT, your amoung friend 's here that's for sure! These folks may not have an answer for you but can tell you what works for them. Don't put off the solution any longer it will only get worse.

Good Luck...... Ba

 

[Spock]

How have you been Rachel, still playing piano?