Canadian Kitty
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Hello, My name is Kittana, I live in Canada, hence the Canadian Kitty user name. I am 31, a newlywed and a new mom to a beautiful 8 month old girl who I am madly in love with! I have Chronic PTSD. I am no therapist, but I do believe very much that my husband has it as well, and is continually misdiagnosed by doctors and therapists who are in bed with the pharmaceutical companies... that is another topic altogther though.
I have been desperately searching for others, for a place I can come to where there are others like me. For far too long I thought I was crazy, and when I finally got the nerve to talk to someone I was sent to see a psychiatrist. He diagnosed me with Chronic PTSD, told me if I didn't want to take medication (which I didn't) that I should talk about it. I was moving to a city 10 hours away so I asked him to refer me to someone and help me find a community. I never heard from him again, and that was 9 years ago. All my life I have managed to control/hide my symptoms and suffering, mainly out of fear.
After having my daughter my symptoms, as well as my husbands, have flared up. I decided to educate myself on line but also to look for others, a community. No one would help me. As I mentionned, my child is now 8 months old, so it has taken me this long. Every place I have been to has been a dead end, or a lead in the wrong direction. I don't wish to jump to medication as a first resort, so most places want nothing to do with me, and send me elsewhere, where the cycle starts again. Because I am a new mom, I keep getting told I have post partum, but I KNOW what this is and it's not post partum. Moms are people too, and though everything is about the baby, not EVERYTHING is about the baby. I remember many nights crying to my friend, saying I can't be the only one, I know there has to be others out there like me! I pray that this is the place! I have been looking around the forum and will continue to do so, I think this is it!
We all need to know we are not alone, and to be able to talk to others, someone who gets it, who isn't just going to feel pity or be afraid of hearing what you have to say. It has been over 25 years, I'm an adult now and am hoping I can finally begin to heal, or at least face this without being alone.
I am so happy that there is a forum! I look forward to new relationships and feeling better.
I have been desperately searching for others, for a place I can come to where there are others like me. For far too long I thought I was crazy, and when I finally got the nerve to talk to someone I was sent to see a psychiatrist. He diagnosed me with Chronic PTSD, told me if I didn't want to take medication (which I didn't) that I should talk about it. I was moving to a city 10 hours away so I asked him to refer me to someone and help me find a community. I never heard from him again, and that was 9 years ago. All my life I have managed to control/hide my symptoms and suffering, mainly out of fear.
After having my daughter my symptoms, as well as my husbands, have flared up. I decided to educate myself on line but also to look for others, a community. No one would help me. As I mentionned, my child is now 8 months old, so it has taken me this long. Every place I have been to has been a dead end, or a lead in the wrong direction. I don't wish to jump to medication as a first resort, so most places want nothing to do with me, and send me elsewhere, where the cycle starts again. Because I am a new mom, I keep getting told I have post partum, but I KNOW what this is and it's not post partum. Moms are people too, and though everything is about the baby, not EVERYTHING is about the baby. I remember many nights crying to my friend, saying I can't be the only one, I know there has to be others out there like me! I pray that this is the place! I have been looking around the forum and will continue to do so, I think this is it!
We all need to know we are not alone, and to be able to talk to others, someone who gets it, who isn't just going to feel pity or be afraid of hearing what you have to say. It has been over 25 years, I'm an adult now and am hoping I can finally begin to heal, or at least face this without being alone.
I am so happy that there is a forum! I look forward to new relationships and feeling better.
