I realised years ago that I need to pay attention to dreams about a house, as they are my unconscious telling me things about myself that I'd rather not know in my waking life.
A few nights ago, I had a house dream that distressed me so much I didn't dare sleep the next night. Every time I thought about it, I started to retch. I spent the first part of the night getting more and more panicky. I wanted to get up and go walking, but knew it would be unsafe in the night. Then I thought about going to a busy place, like an all night cafe, and nearly settled on going and sitting in the A&E waiting room, but was afraid that one of the people I knew might be working that night. In the end I self harmed a little, which helped less than I expected.
There was also a song running through the dream, and I can't get the song out of my head. My abdomen still hurts from the retching, and I'm still yearning to slash it open.
Last night I had another house dream, different and slightly less distressing, but still clear in its meaning.
I don't want to pay attention - I don't want to know.
The strange thing is that the first dream isn't about what happened to me, it's just about feelings
A few nights ago, I had a house dream that distressed me so much I didn't dare sleep the next night. Every time I thought about it, I started to retch. I spent the first part of the night getting more and more panicky. I wanted to get up and go walking, but knew it would be unsafe in the night. Then I thought about going to a busy place, like an all night cafe, and nearly settled on going and sitting in the A&E waiting room, but was afraid that one of the people I knew might be working that night. In the end I self harmed a little, which helped less than I expected.
There was also a song running through the dream, and I can't get the song out of my head. My abdomen still hurts from the retching, and I'm still yearning to slash it open.
Last night I had another house dream, different and slightly less distressing, but still clear in its meaning.
I don't want to pay attention - I don't want to know.
The strange thing is that the first dream isn't about what happened to me, it's just about feelings
