SeekingAfrica
Diamond Member
I've been single for about 10months, I wasn't over my relationship yet. I've been raped, in the past and it took a long time to get over. Also molested, as a child. Somehow, eventually, I ended up in my last relationship and we were together for 5 years.
I thought being with him had thought me that I can have a healthy relationship. I think it did. But I am still so touchy. I mean I wasn't even thinking about dating for the longest time, but now I'm freaking out about it.
I keep thinking things like, how would I allow anyone in my apartment, or me going to some strangers place...I'm not talking on a first date, but I in general. It took me months and months to get to fully trusting my last relationship, and we had been friends first and how am I supposed to do that again? But I do, I want to date, lately I've been feeling like I want to, but now that I figured I want to I'm freaking out about it. Maybe I'm not ready. How do people date? I feel like I'm broken in whatever part of me is supposed to find dating light and fun.
I had a friend that was married for 10 years with kids, who got divorced. Few months later she was going to parties and meeting new people and was all excited ...6 months after starting to date she started dating a guy that became her husband eventually. I on the other hand am completely freaking out about every detail of how dating will work.
I thought being with him had thought me that I can have a healthy relationship. I think it did. But I am still so touchy. I mean I wasn't even thinking about dating for the longest time, but now I'm freaking out about it.
I keep thinking things like, how would I allow anyone in my apartment, or me going to some strangers place...I'm not talking on a first date, but I in general. It took me months and months to get to fully trusting my last relationship, and we had been friends first and how am I supposed to do that again? But I do, I want to date, lately I've been feeling like I want to, but now that I figured I want to I'm freaking out about it. Maybe I'm not ready. How do people date? I feel like I'm broken in whatever part of me is supposed to find dating light and fun.
I had a friend that was married for 10 years with kids, who got divorced. Few months later she was going to parties and meeting new people and was all excited ...6 months after starting to date she started dating a guy that became her husband eventually. I on the other hand am completely freaking out about every detail of how dating will work.
