How Can I Deal With Court When Cops Trigger My Ptsd?

[AnnArkist]

I'm not going to tell my full life story but basically a couple weeks ago me and my friends were wrongfully arrested. We got 3 charges and were not even doing anything. And from the arrest my psychiatrist says I have the onset of PTSD from it. And I can't even remember half of what happened after the cop pulled up behind us, he was a major jerk and now I'm terrified of all cops.

So my issue is, cops trigger my PTSD.

After this happened, If I see a random cop I panic. I saw one across the field the other day and grabbed my mom(and I'm a 30 Something year old adult here) and told her I couldn't walk past him and just started crying like a baby and panicking.
So I have no choice but to go to court next week and I do not know how to deal with it at all.

There's going to be cops everywhere in the court room, and I'm also terrified of going back to jail. Or as I call it, hell.

I'm seeing a psychiatrist as I said but it's not helping much. I'm still panicking like crazy. I don't know how to deal with this without having a heart attack in the court room. That's what I feel like is going to happen to me.

If anyone can relate please tell me how you coped with this.

 

[joe222]

I... I don't know how to deal with it in that particular circumstance. Just recognise your strength, which you definitely have as you're still getting up in the morning, and still doing your best. Recognise that all the cops, aren't relevant and that only a couple are to blame and on top of it recognise it was a one off. Or maybe even tell your legal counsel, get the evidence from your psychiatrist and maybe you could get a closed hearing? Not sure to be fair for what to do, but I do know you're strong enough, just remember to breathe.