SeekingAfrica
Diamond Member
I am terribly anxious, like can't cope with truth anxious and also awake at night when I desperately need help anxious.
I have to maaaybe choose to stay where I am 3 more months and that is brutal.
Literally I can't deal living the way I'm living right now. I can't keep tolerating all I have been tolerating. I can't keep the promise not to talk about anxiety, because if I have to change things there with my parents, if we have to coexist then I have to make changes because I'm getting the not getting out of bed part and it's not cool, it's not pretty, and it just sucks. But life is life nonetheless. And I am in so bad denial I can't even express like it physically gives me a rash figuring out how to cope with this.
But if I have no choice but to do this then the way I live will HAVE to change and when you don't live alone this has to be a conversation. And not always a pleasant one. And not one you have all answer to either. It could be ugly and harsh and my anxiety is through the roof, how do I have this conversation?
How do I make sure we talk about the right things and not just end up fighting for hours ??
I can't live this way. I tried because I have no choice, but I'm literally getting to denial and avoidance point and it's getting SUPER UNHEALTHY.
Please someone help.
Talking to people is hardest and the conversation I have to have now is the final boss.
I have to maaaybe choose to stay where I am 3 more months and that is brutal.
Literally I can't deal living the way I'm living right now. I can't keep tolerating all I have been tolerating. I can't keep the promise not to talk about anxiety, because if I have to change things there with my parents, if we have to coexist then I have to make changes because I'm getting the not getting out of bed part and it's not cool, it's not pretty, and it just sucks. But life is life nonetheless. And I am in so bad denial I can't even express like it physically gives me a rash figuring out how to cope with this.
But if I have no choice but to do this then the way I live will HAVE to change and when you don't live alone this has to be a conversation. And not always a pleasant one. And not one you have all answer to either. It could be ugly and harsh and my anxiety is through the roof, how do I have this conversation?
How do I make sure we talk about the right things and not just end up fighting for hours ??
I can't live this way. I tried because I have no choice, but I'm literally getting to denial and avoidance point and it's getting SUPER UNHEALTHY.
Please someone help.
Talking to people is hardest and the conversation I have to have now is the final boss.
