Lionheart
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Thanks for the topic...
During my childhood, my dad had the power, the power to hurt me and my mom. My mother and I went through a lot of emotional abuse and physical abuse until I got a little older then I became a survivor of sexual child abuse. After that, I developed the belief that men held all the power and women and children were simply victims and thus had no power. Then as I got older, I came to view both men and women as having power but not children and certainly not me. I lived with that belief for decades. Years after that I saw women as having all of the power....everyone it seemed but me.
So I grew up without any sense of my personal power until one day it dawned on me that people were looking in the wrong place for power. I learned about self-help books and self-empowerment and then things began to change. I began to seek power from within and this has been the course ever since.
I am not trying to conquer the world I am only trying to conquer myself. So I don't look to find power over other people, that is not my thing...when a person has power over another then the wielding of power can become corrupt and abusive. (but not always). I think what helped me most was accepting that I am powerless over a lot of things and that I do not have complete control, (nor do I really want it). I don't want the responsibility that comes with having a lot of control and power. and I try to ensure that I don't abuse what power I do have... it is important for me to separate myself from abusive people.
Anyway, I suppose I am rambling and should stop, but thanks for the topic. It took a long time for me to accept that it was even possible for me to have power...the power to protect myself, to direct my life in the way that I choose, etc. Yes, I will take "power from within" instead of "power over" any day!!!
(I hope something I have said is helpful to you)!!!
lionheart
During my childhood, my dad had the power, the power to hurt me and my mom. My mother and I went through a lot of emotional abuse and physical abuse until I got a little older then I became a survivor of sexual child abuse. After that, I developed the belief that men held all the power and women and children were simply victims and thus had no power. Then as I got older, I came to view both men and women as having power but not children and certainly not me. I lived with that belief for decades. Years after that I saw women as having all of the power....everyone it seemed but me.
So I grew up without any sense of my personal power until one day it dawned on me that people were looking in the wrong place for power. I learned about self-help books and self-empowerment and then things began to change. I began to seek power from within and this has been the course ever since.
I am not trying to conquer the world I am only trying to conquer myself. So I don't look to find power over other people, that is not my thing...when a person has power over another then the wielding of power can become corrupt and abusive. (but not always). I think what helped me most was accepting that I am powerless over a lot of things and that I do not have complete control, (nor do I really want it). I don't want the responsibility that comes with having a lot of control and power. and I try to ensure that I don't abuse what power I do have... it is important for me to separate myself from abusive people.
Anyway, I suppose I am rambling and should stop, but thanks for the topic. It took a long time for me to accept that it was even possible for me to have power...the power to protect myself, to direct my life in the way that I choose, etc. Yes, I will take "power from within" instead of "power over" any day!!!
(I hope something I have said is helpful to you)!!!
lionheart
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