Sleeping Dragon
Platinum Member
I'm just back from Knee surgery. All went well, and I should be back on my feet, fishing and playing golf in just a few weeks.
Still on bupropion, 450 mg. per day, and am down to one counceling session per month. I'm doing my ABCs and writhing in my journal regularly.
That said my Brothers and Sisters, I haven't felt this good in as long as I can remember. After all the years living with what we talk of on this site I honestly forgot what a good day felt like. That's not to say there haven't been good days for me. But, each one brought its own type of struggle.
On this day the tension, apprehension and ultra allert feelings are just part of the day, not its dominating factors. That's a huge step for me bacause I finally see how good things can be again.
Now, with all that said I realize I'm not cured cause there is no cure. More struggles will come, and there's no guarantees on how long the good times will last. I don't get to stay in paradse for ever, but I can visit once in a while.
I'm passing this on because I want you to know that it tells me why I didn't give up. This one morning made the huge effort worth while. And, I've been dealing with this shit sinse 1967.
As I've said in other threads, this is not a f*cking pep talk. None of us need that crap. It's just may way of saying KEEP TAKING THOSE BABY STEPS. EACH ONE LEADS TO A BETER PLACE.
SD
Still on bupropion, 450 mg. per day, and am down to one counceling session per month. I'm doing my ABCs and writhing in my journal regularly.
That said my Brothers and Sisters, I haven't felt this good in as long as I can remember. After all the years living with what we talk of on this site I honestly forgot what a good day felt like. That's not to say there haven't been good days for me. But, each one brought its own type of struggle.
On this day the tension, apprehension and ultra allert feelings are just part of the day, not its dominating factors. That's a huge step for me bacause I finally see how good things can be again.
Now, with all that said I realize I'm not cured cause there is no cure. More struggles will come, and there's no guarantees on how long the good times will last. I don't get to stay in paradse for ever, but I can visit once in a while.
I'm passing this on because I want you to know that it tells me why I didn't give up. This one morning made the huge effort worth while. And, I've been dealing with this shit sinse 1967.
As I've said in other threads, this is not a f*cking pep talk. None of us need that crap. It's just may way of saying KEEP TAKING THOSE BABY STEPS. EACH ONE LEADS TO A BETER PLACE.
SD
