How to talk to therapist

[Friday]

...And now I feel like I need space and distance from her-like I have said too much and just want to run. Is this normal? To freak out about someone knowing too much?

I call this the ‘PTSD Tango’.

Happens inside of friendships & romantic relationships, too. It’s one of the top gripes over in the supporter section; how after having an amazing weekend/day/date/etc. where they got really close... we just... vanish. When the more normal thing? Is to continue or increase that level of closeness/intimacy, rather than backing away!

It’s exceptionaly normal for PTSD, though.

INTENSE! -crickets- INTENSE! -radio silence- INTENSE! -hellooooooo?-

 

[hopefully optimistic]

Friday-yessssss! Makes so much sense, and good to know it’s not just me.

 

[Abstract]

So, after emailing my therapist, she did email me back. And now I feel like I need space and distance from her-like I have said too much and just want to run. Is this normal? To freak out about someone knowing too much?

Totally relate. I even do it on here. "Speak and freak". But if it relates to trauma speaking makes it real and having someone else in front of you achnloeding it makes it even more real. Plus that means you have to somehow trust the person to respond in a helpful way. PTSD doesn't = easy trust annoyingly! And if its something highly personal and you have hypervigalance or a poor history of people being trustworthy? Normal to freak. If she deals with trauma she should understand this all. And maybe is aware of not forcing you to face more than you are able.

Sometimes limiting emails if they have become the default over speaking can be about not enabling the avoidance of the development of trust. Most t's are fine with it depending on their own boundary rules but using email to escape any real face to face interaction can be a way of avoiding and habbit forming.
I couldnt speak at all except for a sentence a session the last time I did therapy by the way. ?

 

[hopefully optimistic]

Abstract-yeah...I can see how I am using email to avoid actually trusting her and her reactions and responses....