New roomate is moving in today... plus MIL is coming back over...
so as you could imagine I'm cleanig like crazy,
or at least I"m trying to.
I keep catching myself standing in a room with no idea of what I was doing or why I went there.
I get distracted way too easily
(for example... I'm on the computer right now, instead of cleaning, oops)
My back is still hurten... although physical therapy did relief some pressure and stiffness yesterday... my back/neck/jaw muscles have already begun to tighten up.
I don't even want to talk about the facial pain...
OHHHHH!!!!! Just now (while I was typing this) I got a call from the university hospital, my doctor had spoken to the sleep specialist, and they are putting me on something that will hopefully help me get in control of my nightly horrifying nightmare!!!!!! (or reduce them)
I'm willing to try anything at this point.
It's the same nightmare every f*cking night, with tiny variations added.
I crave rest, my body may sleep, but my minds running at full speed trying to sort out stuff.
I want to work on my issues while I'm awake, not in nightmares.
For almost 2 years now, I've been having the same dream every night and it's almost become an alternate life for me. messed up