Husband/911 And Just Arggh

[Freedomfighter]

So, I have already been having issues and anxiety feeling like I talk way to much about myself here. B...

Your resentment is understandable, seems the person you are to others you yourself can not lean on.
My dad had behavior like that towards my mom, and it pains me to know that if I would have stayed around he would have nudged me into the grave a little more each day. The anger that I feel knowing what he truly has done to my mom every day for over 50 years leaves me feeling numb.
They say he is mentally ill, which may be true to a certain degree. However, to be mentally ill does not absolve a person from knowingly abusing others to the point of death. That is what he does to people, to now know how calculating he is and how he still after dishing out all of the abuse wanted to be taken care of like a little toddler infuriates me.

It is not at all tough to know that I will never speak to him again.

 

[Fadeaway]

Thanks everyone, you guys are my saving grace right now.
I am beyond mentally exhausted right now and to afraid to go to sleep. It's one of those night where I know what going to happen if I fall asleep, but I desperately need it, and should take advantage of the fact that I will probably fall asleep fairly quickly. I just don't feel strong enough to deal with nightmares too.

 

[Fadeaway]

I am not ok right now. The only thing keeping me out of seeking hospital help is that if I do we loose everything. For once in my life I want to not have to be so strong. I have to physically move my entire apartment to another building tomorrow by my self in the midst of vomiting and no sleep. We have to be out tomorrow due to black mold. No help. My husband is milking the fact he is on oxygen for all he is worth, but he has medications to help. I don't. We have very little money and because he has been off work next paycheck is only a few days, so can't afford to pay anyone to help.

I can't believe I have found myself once again feeling like I am going to vomit and pass out but forced in to dealing with stuff when I need to lie down. I wish I could faint, but I have this damn iron will that allows me to literally be on deaths door and still load a moving van instead of passing out. When I try to tell people how bad I feel no one takes me serious. I get told I am overreacting and being a hypochondriac.

 

[joeylittle]

I have to physically move my entire apartment to another building tomorrow by my self in the midst of vomiting and no sleep.

That's so awful and unfair. One of those, "shouldn't the landlord be responsible?!" things that the landlord is never responsible for. :mad:

 

[Fadeaway]

They are moving us to another building, as mine doesn't have any vacancies, but they said legally they are not allowed to assist with the move due to liability.

 

[scout86]

I wish I lived closer enough to pop over and help! (I've had lots of practice moving & am pretty good at it.)

The liability thing sounds like something rather lame excuse. :mad:

 

[joeylittle]

The liability thing sounds like something rather lame excuse

Agree times 1,000,000.

 

[Fadeaway]

Hubby wants to sue and normally I would agree but I am worried about them not renewing our lease and having bad credit. I am sitting in urgent care right now hoping they can give me something to help me physically and maybe something stronger for anxiety for just one night.
@scout86 i .

 

[desiderata310]

DAMN @Fadeaway
If there was some way I could help I would. :(

 

[scout86]

Do you know any Boy Scouts? Don't they give merit badges for community service?

I hope you get some rest and more than that, some help!

 

[Fadeaway]

Hmm.. I can try and find out.