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I’d like to give a shout-out to ptsd for f*cking up the following things!

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I think I have been PTSD since ever I can remember, having my earliest memories in there with my trauma memories. So I don't know how to answer this question except to say that I was never like the other kids in school, never like anyone is at church or at my job. My husband always treated me like I was made of glass, I think he feared I would break and he was probably right! His family hated me. I think he died young because of the stress of living with me and putting up with me. I live with anxiety on a daily basis. Anxiety meds don't really work on me anymore. I don't want to take the kinds of ones and doses of them that I would be out of it. So I just "deal with it." I deal with a lot. I don't let it show if I can help it. Sometimes I cannot help but to let it show anyway, even though I try so hard not to. I have other mental health conditions too, so I cannot say for sure how much of this is PTSD. Having read up on it a lot, though, I would say that a large portion of it is.
 
Loss of old self/Identity
Feeling safe
Independence
Spontaneous attitude
Love of shopping and crowds
Sleep
Naps
Focus
Memory
Job
Public Bathrooms not possible
Anxiety and panic
Control
No shame
No guilt
How to find good in every situation and people
Feeling adored by husband, daughter, family and friends (oh how I miss that look) Now replaced look is scared, annoyed, confused, and angry. (I realize they can’t help it and I would do the same if situation was reversed)

Just to name a few

Sounds depressing but feels good to get it out.
 
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Always on guard, can't stand crowds, My dreams are now nightmares (sleepless nights). Low self worth,...
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Sunny13,
I have all of these things and nothing helps and I mean nothing. I am about to get divorced because my husband says I am the most stand offish person he has ever met. One reason is because when he comes up behind me and touches me I jump out of my skin. He doesn't understand that there is nothing I can do about the response he gets
 
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yep most of yours are mine too;
the mall definitely (my trauma actually happened in one)
bars or anywhere with drunk people (people are unpredictable and a risk to safety, especially when drunk)
driving (people are unpredictable and a risk to safety)
trains (people are unpredictable, you can't get away if they become a threat)
loud noises/environments. sadly that makes my tolerance for groups of young kids really low, i can't take the noise! i love kids but the noise has me on edge the whole time
sleep
my perfect teeth. anxiety grinding is ruining them. after a lifetime of taking care of them I'm about to spend over $3000 to try to repair the damage that anxiety and ptsd has done.

at my worst all these things were very very difficult for me. nearing the end of therapy and i'm finding it all alot easier. Had a landmark moment recently where I wore earphones on the train for the first time ever. But the next week someone was being intimidating to random passengers in my carriage so I haven't done it since!
 
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